Whatever, Whenever

I just got back from a very short and unsatisfying lunch break. I wanted to go sit with the J Club, they always eat lunch at noon. I wanted to sit with Heather H, and Gabe, and Jennie O, and everyone else. But Leigh was sitting with them, so I didn't. Instead, I sat by myself waiting for Gemma to come in, hoping she would come sit with me. But when she did come in she went and sat with J Club. And I would have felt alright sitting at the same table as Leigh if Gemma were there with me, but at that point I didn't want to get up and relocate myself. I don't know. I don't want them all to think that I'm only okay sitting with them if Gemma is there too. Although that was once the case, now I feel like I could approach them without her.

I really like the J Club people, but ever since Leigh got back from Japan I just haven't felt like I have the right to hang out with them in the caf. Even though we have supposedly burried the hatchet, she still isn't the kind of person I want to spend my meals with. She never sincerely apologized for having messed around with Wes R. behind my back. Truth is, she isn't sorry about having done it, she's sorry about having gotten caught. Until she sincerely apologizes I can never truly forgive her, and as such can never interact with her on any honest level.

I wish Leigh was still back in Japan. If she wasnt here I'd have another social option open to me. At least she is graduating this year. Then I won't have to deal with her for the rest of my life.

Good Enough For Me, iy yi yi yi

Feeling better already, though still somewhat spacey. I got up for Philosophy class today only to discover that class was cancelled and no one took the time to let me know. Even a simple email would have been great. I could have slept in. Yeah, I walked into the Black Studies department and there were no lights on in the entire wing, so I just turned around and came here to the computer lab.

So tonight I'm going to get up off my sickly little ass and go try out for "Why We Have a Body." All of the characters are female so every actress and psuedo-actress on campus is going out for it. I heard that last nights auditions were totally packed! I was telling Gemma last night that since there aren't many good actresses on campus I could already predict who was gonna get cast, here is my list: Mary Morales (thats a no brainer.) Allison Beale (the only good under classman actress we have) if Katy Biver tries out for it, shell get a part. And then there is the one wild card role. Anyone could get it if they're good enough. I'm just hoping I'll be the wild card.

But I really shouldn't get my hopes up. I've only been cast in one black box production before. Oh, I just thought of another actress, Rachel Abarbenall. She is absolutely horrendous, but she is a friend of Amber's so she will surely get cast if she auditions. *sigh* Guess it just wasn't meant to be this time.

C. Ya

PS Rumor has it that Marc is trying to get into our senior portfolio class next term. Monica shouldn't let him in, he's only a junior! He's prolly trying to get in just so he can have one last class with Dave K. and Stacia before they graduate. True, I'm taking the class for the very same reasons, because I want to take it with Norm, Heather, and Tris, but thats besides the point. I would take it next year if HE wasn't going to be in the class because I'd have Gemma and Kurt with me. I will seriously maim Monica if she lets him in. If he gets in, I'm declaring war. As much as I don't want to since this is supposed to be our capstone writing class, I don't care, I'll do it anyway. I will not have that elitist prick and his crew spoil my final writing class at this school. No no no no no!