morrigirl | A Cool Night in the City

Haven't written in a while. Well, no that's not true, it's only been three days or so. Still, to someone who is used to writing every single day it feels like an eternity. I've tried to update. But I dunno what my problem is. I'll sit down at the computer and either either nothing will come out or nothing but pure drivel will ooze out.

Part of my problem is I never think to write when I'm in the right frame of mind. I always try to update either just after I wake up or right before I go to bed, periods during which I am way tired and/or groggy and can't form coherent thoughts.

My other problem is...not much has really been going on. Over the last week I've sorta relaxed about..oh, everything. I'm not as worried about not having a job. I'm still sending out resumes but I'm not having a melt down when no one calls me in for an interview. I've lost all desire to leave the house, but I'm thinking of it as a bad thing. If I don't go out I can't spend money I don't have which I ALWAYS do when I'm out and about. I dunno, i've just been sitting at home watching TV, playing Sims, serfing the internet, and playing with my dolls. Not a bad existence, but not a terribly interesting one either.

Been feeling pretty numb. Can't even muster up enough passion to be concern about my lack of feeling. And since i'm not feeling anything, I'm not feeling bad. Which is fine by me. Would rather feel level than be all stressed over nothing.

That's all for now. Ta ta.