morrigirl | Delusions of Grandeur

I believe I've been living under the assumption that I'm prettier than I actually am. After getting my photo ID taken today I'm starting to notice a striking difference between what I think I see in the mirror every morning and what others might be seeing. I'm no great neauty by any stretch of the imagination. Never have been, never will be. And generally I'm a bit sloppy, and frizzy, and ill assembled, but I've always considered myself presentable. You wouldn't be embaressed to be seen in public with me. At least that's what I've always thought. But I WOULD be embarressed to be seen with the girl staring back from my photo ID. She is unpleasantly plump, her cheeks are too big, her hair is a nightmare from hell, and her eyes are all buggy. Her skin is all shiney even though she actually bothered to put on powder this morning. She's a mess. And some will say "Well of course you looked shitty Carla, it's a photo ID, everyone looks bad in their photo ID," or "Hey some people just don't photograph very well." I know I don't photograph well. I've taken maybe three good pictures my entire life but...maybe it's not the camera's fault. Maybe I'm just not as attractive as I've thought myself to be?

It's a thought.