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Mediocrity Keeps Me Warm - SCN
Jun. 28th, 2003 12:31 pmHello Journal,
Haven't written in you in a couple days. How ya been?
I finished "User" this morning. I didn't like it at first, but as I got further into the story the characters began to grow on me even though they were all beautiful, rich, unsympathetic raver kids who never did anything but fuck and smoke up. I'm telling you, every other page had a sex scene, the book was closer to those fake ass letters in Playboy.
But, as I read on I started getting into the story and picking apart the imagery and analyzing shit. Guess that's the one thing I got out of 5 years of education, an ability to create meaning within a meaningless piece of writing. The end was depressing because the main character is still an asshole and never really evolves. Or rather his evolution is minute, barely even recognizable. He just decides to let Amy love him even as he continues to love Tracy. Doesn't leave you much hope for generation Y.
Today is Josh's birthday. I gotta call him. We aren't gonna hang out or anything. I'm getting the feeling that he's grown tired of me. Said we'd hang out this week, and he never called. When I called earlier in the week to ask if he wanted to hang today he didn't sound into it. I get the feeling we're not gonna be going out anymore. Even so, I'm gonna call him to say happy birthday. Thank God we haven't been seeing each other long enough for me to have put my heart into it. So...I'm not hurt. I mean, I don't relish the idea of being alone but, for once, I wasn't in love with him.
Been feeling down lately. Mainly cause I'm bored and alone. No one to chill with, no one to distract me from this hole of a life that I lead. Well, I always have my books I guess. But I'm cruising through them incredibly fast. Already done with three of my five birthday books. Just started a fourth. I'm leaving Homicide for last. That one will take the longest to finish.
Haven't written in you in a couple days. How ya been?
I finished "User" this morning. I didn't like it at first, but as I got further into the story the characters began to grow on me even though they were all beautiful, rich, unsympathetic raver kids who never did anything but fuck and smoke up. I'm telling you, every other page had a sex scene, the book was closer to those fake ass letters in Playboy.
But, as I read on I started getting into the story and picking apart the imagery and analyzing shit. Guess that's the one thing I got out of 5 years of education, an ability to create meaning within a meaningless piece of writing. The end was depressing because the main character is still an asshole and never really evolves. Or rather his evolution is minute, barely even recognizable. He just decides to let Amy love him even as he continues to love Tracy. Doesn't leave you much hope for generation Y.
Today is Josh's birthday. I gotta call him. We aren't gonna hang out or anything. I'm getting the feeling that he's grown tired of me. Said we'd hang out this week, and he never called. When I called earlier in the week to ask if he wanted to hang today he didn't sound into it. I get the feeling we're not gonna be going out anymore. Even so, I'm gonna call him to say happy birthday. Thank God we haven't been seeing each other long enough for me to have put my heart into it. So...I'm not hurt. I mean, I don't relish the idea of being alone but, for once, I wasn't in love with him.
Been feeling down lately. Mainly cause I'm bored and alone. No one to chill with, no one to distract me from this hole of a life that I lead. Well, I always have my books I guess. But I'm cruising through them incredibly fast. Already done with three of my five birthday books. Just started a fourth. I'm leaving Homicide for last. That one will take the longest to finish.
