As the Day is Long

Oh goodness, all right I've finally caved and gotten a livejournal. All of Gemma and Cori's badgering finally paid off!

Actually it wasn't really their badgering that did it. It was my growing disatisfaction and boredom with SCN. That and that fact that I'm sick of having to censor myself in my other journal simply because my Mom reads it. While part of me wanted to just go find a completely new site that no one knew about, in the end I decided livejournal would be the best choice for a move. Mainly because it'll help me keep in contact with my Knox friends now that I'm graduating. And i mean, generally i don't mind my friends reading my journal so, ya know, no reason to hide from them.

But don't get all excited. I don't think I'm gonna be writing in this thing regularly, not just yet anyway. I'm gonna stick with SCN for a little while longer. Gonna use this here journal to keep up with my buds and such, and eventually the time will come for the permanent move.

Does that make sense? Sorry, It's been a long 36 hours. I've lost all of my linguistic abilities.

Precious Things - SCN

Yesterday sucked sixteen different levels of ass, therefore I am not going to take the time to re-count it. I'd much rather forget the whole day ever happened.

Even so, a couple of cool things DID happen so I'm gonna write about them, and perhaps by doing so affirm the good and neagate the bad.

1)Gemma sent me a Livejournal code yesterday :) I have a Livejournal now. Don't worry though I'm not leaving SCN just yet. Still not ready, even though I do think I'm gonna start phasing myself out after I graduate. I've already heavily withdrawn from the religion forum. This journal is gonna be the next to go. When it does however, I do plan on giving my Livejournal address to anyone who is genuinely interested in continuing to follow my life (yeah right.) And I plan on sticking with the Groups here at SCN. I run two really fabulous groups, DepressionSupport, and PagansAndOccultists, and the people are just so great and the groups are really helpful, so I'll stick around for them.

2)This event isn't from yesterday it's actually from this morning. I finally found what I was looking for: humanizing information about Matt Shepard.

http://www.geocities.com/WestHollywood/Stonewall/2878/

This site gives really detailed mundane infor a bout Matt like what schools he attended, what his interests and hobbies were, his mom's maiden name, stuff like that. I also found another site that contained multiple pictures of Matt, and I found the single most humanizing image I've seen of him to date: a full copy of his old AOL profile. Oh man seeing that was just heartbreaking, because it really brought home the fact that he was just a regular guy. Like any other college student he spent a lot of time playing on the internet and sending IM's and...he was just like you and me. Not special. Just a guy. And he was killed because Aaron Mckinney and Russ Henderson didn't understand that he was just a guy.

3)And here is an amusing exchange that took place yesterday in math class between me and Gemma. Burgland was wearing this funky dress shirt yesterday that had the buttons sewed onto the back. So at one point I leaned over to Gemma and said:

Carla: "How do you put on a shirt with buttons in the back?"

Gemma: "You ask your husband."

Carla: "What if he's already gone to work?"

Gemma: "The kids? The dog? The nextdoor neighbor? The pool man? The dentist? Hell if I know!"

Jesus He Knows Me - SCN

Just finished writing my introduction. That was a lot easier then expected. Here's the quote I'm openning the paper with:

"Before we decide how to respond to the murder of our young gay brother, Matthew Shepard, let's remember another cruel and tragic death suffered by a young Jewish teacher almost 2,000 years ago. Both young men were condemned by political and religious leaders. Both were humiliated by their peers. Both were brutally bashed then tied to wooden stakes and left alone in the cold to die. Both deaths leave us stunned as we witness again the unthinkable power of evil at work among us."
- Dr. Mel White, author of Stranger at the Gate: To Be Gay and Christian In America

And I need to list all of my online sources in one place, so this is gonna be it for the moment.

http://www.villagevoice.com/issues/0211/goldstein.php (Village Voice Review)

http://kueerkultur.tripod.com/LaramieProject030312.html (Ruby Lips Rant)

http://members.tripod.com/~filmtraveler/Shepard.html (Matthew Shepard, The Man.)

http://www.motherflash.com/TheLivingWaters/sermons/mwhite1.html (Soulforce Statement)

http://www.geocities.com/WestHollywood/Stonewall/2878/ (Matthew Wayne Shepard: A Gentle Spirit)

http://www.true-words.com/matthewshepard/ (Images and documents)

http://www.northwestern.edu/episcopal/1999-00/dennis-shepard-11-1999.html (Dennis Shepard's full statement to the court @ Mckinney's sentencing.)

The final days and nights of a gay martyr Newsweek; New York; Dec 21, 1998; Mark Miller

Beyond the fence: Conjuring the lives of martyr Matthew Shepard. The Village Voice; New York; Nov 3, 1998; Guy Trebay

To be young and gay in Wyoming. Time; New York; Oct 26, 1998; Steve Lopez

That's not a scarecrow. Time; New York; Oct 19, 1998; Howard Chua-Eoan