The Break

All right it finally happened, I couldn't hold it back. I cried.

I cried after saying goodbye to Heather. Figures it would be Heather who extracted tears from my eyes. Again, just couldn't stop hugging her. And the thought that it would be three years at the very least before I get to hug her again was too much. As I walked away from her, T, Ruby, and Steffi on my way over to Adrienne's, I started sobbing.

And the tears just started coming and they wouldn't stop. And I cried and cried and cried, and let myself feel the hurt of losing them.

Eventually I was able to compose myself enough to go see Adrienne. She was able to cheer me up. We just sat round talking and laughing for a half hour. It was a great pick me up.

And now I must continue the packing ordeal, which is almost complete now. Just a few more items to go and then I can go to bed in good conscience.

I'm glad Adrienne was able to make me feel better. I will miss her. And I'm glad I let myself cry for this loss. I'm sure it will take a few more weeks before it really sets in. But I will be back next year. My friends may be gone but I fight on!

I remember how hard I cried the day Heather and Erin dropped me off at the airport when I thought I was going to quit school. How much pain and panic I felt at having to leave them. But leaving people is not all that bad really. Mel and Libby both left, but even though I don't see them everyday, they are still in my life and I still love them as dearly as I did four years ago.

No one ever leaves, they just move on.

Goddess bless.

The Night That Never Ends

It's three AM. I thought the night was over. I was wrong

Heather, Steffi, T, and Ruby showed up an hour ago to drop off all the food Heather gave to T. Then Heather and I dragged the others on a trip down memory lane. We got all nostalgic and went through every floor in Raub checking the closets for the suite listings that everyone signs. We found all of the signatures from our freshman year.

Then we all went outside and T, Heather, and Ruby smoked a cigar and we reminisced about the old quad. We remembered flunk days, and rooms we made out in, and the night T, Gayle, and I drew on the side walk at 3 in the morning, and how Clark always made out with Agnes with his shades up, and how Gayle would always watch his window, and we talked about which suites we were most emotionally attached to. I think I'm attached to all of them :)

Then we all said a nice goodbye and now I'm back home continuing to pack. I don't think I will be sleeping tonight. I'll doze off on the train.

Later gater (Or until some other wayward senior finds his or her way over here!)