A Slave For Buffy

Just got back from watching Buffy with Adrienne in the Gizmo.

She called me earlier in the night and originally I hadn't wanted to go anywhere. I'm just all like, people, ugh. But you, know it's Adrienne so how could I say no? And it hit me how reclusive I must be if I would rather sit home and pack then hang out with a girl I like.

Anyway, I'm glad I went bacause being with her is fun and it just makes me happy.

So we are sitting there watching TV and having a grand ole time when Clark comes and sits down with us. And we all talk and it's cool and we are all having just kind of having gibberish talk, we are making words but they don't really have any meaning or idea behind them. And then suddenly Clark seems to get the idea that Adrienne and I are talking about him and he starts getting all pissy. He seems to think that there is some logical meaning behind what we were saying when there wasn't! Anyway, he was tired and so obviously in a bad mood and was totally trying to goad us (or me at least) into an argument so he could take his aggression out on me. Anyway I finally told him I wasn't going to argue with him and he got all huffy and left. Adrienne was befuddled, but I know it was just him trying to use a friend (me) to his own end (releasing aggression.)

That's all the boy does is use people. The only point in him making a friend is so he can use that friend to his own ends. God he pissed me off so bad tonight! What fucking right does he have to come and intrude when I'm enjoying myself with a girl he knows I like!

I'm so sick of his shit! What the hell I am thinking trying to be friends with him? He's a user, a fake, self-absorbed, inconsiderate and totally hypocritical! He whines about being unable to find the right girl, a girl who will critisize him! He hates all his girlfriends because they love him! Because they will not not critisize him the way he feels he deserves to be critisized because he hates himself so much! And because he hates himself he is never truly open with anyone because he is afraid they will hate him to. Can you say self fulfilling prophecy?

Anyway, I deserve better treatment and more consideration then he gives me.

I am considering our friendship officially disolved.

Rollerbabies

We had the BEST time this afternoon. Apparently we have a roller rink here in Galesburg. (Who knew?!) The entire senior class was invited to go and skate care of the school. So Gayle, Steffi, Heather and I went!

About one third of the graduatig class showed up. Mary Morales, Katy, Clark, Moses, Jacob, Brent, Slick, Rhea, Amber, Hannah, Erin Farb, Brooks, Norm, and Pam were all there.

I hadn't been skaing in 12 years so it was a real treat. It took me a few minutes to get the hang of it but pretty soon it all came back to me. Steffi and I were totally cruising around like pros! Heather couldn't remember how and kept falling down. Ditto for Norman :) They were cute. Moses, Clark, and Jacob kept racing each other around the rink.

There were two races, Erin Rockwood won one and Moses won the other. Erin also won the limbo competition :) And Steffi, Gayle and I skated around during the friendship skate :)

I had SOOOOOOOO much fun today. Honestly, I just couldn't stop smiling even when I was falling down. I LOVE skating SOOOOOOO much. If I had a pair of roller skates I'd do it all the time. Blades just don't do it for me. They are too much like ice skates and I don't like ice skates.

Now I'm all sweaty and gross but it doesn't matter because I am happy happy happy.

Think I'll go add roller skates to my birthday list.