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Ripper and Cletus the Donkey
May. 25th, 2002 06:11 pmHiya,
I had an interesting thought last night while drifting off to sleep. (that seems to be the time when I have all my cool thoughts.) I was thinking about my religious faith and at what times I am the most devoted to worship. I realized that I turn most heavily to religion in times of great emotional turmoil (like now) and during times of great happiness and achievement (like last year.) It's only when I am somewhere in the gray middle that religion becomes pointless. Neutrality does not foster religious ferver.
Now this seems mighty odd to me since wicca always emphasizes the need for balance, the usefulness of complete integration. But it looks to me that people are drawn to religion in times of exteme emotional swing. Therefore it is imbalance itself that makes religion necessary to humans. It is emotional extremes that religion helps us to weather. If one were totally balanced, would they need religion at all? And why advocate something that essentially spells out the end of religion?
Francesca DeGrandis inspired this train of thought. There was a chapter in "Be A Goddess" in which she talks about the inhibiting aspects of balance, and the healthy expression and usefulnes of extreme emotions. I'm not sure what I think of her ideas yet, obviously I'm still pondering. In any case, I find the idea fascinating if only for the fact that it goes aganist all of my other Wiccan teachings.
Cin Salach was here last night and gave a really fun reading. As usual I sat with Adrienne. During the reading I had this overwhelming urge to kiss her that I didn't act on because I wasn't sure if it would be kosher. So instead I just bit her sweater. Yeah, I'm weird. Anyway, I was thinking how inept I felt when kissing her at the party. I mean it was so quick and forced, I don't feel like I did a very good job. I wish I could get her in a nice calm situation where I could REALLY kiss her. Where I could show off my talents and kiss her the way she deserves to be kissed. *sigh*
And speaking of kissing, I found out last night that Tina has been getting a little kissing action from one of our friends. I'm not going to name names because I don't think either of them really want this spread around, but suffice to say it is someone I didn't think was gay. But now it appears that she is, and T says they have been kissing every night since the party. I say GOOD FOR TINA! Last night apparently they kissed in the Gizmo after Cin's reading and T was very excited because it was the first time she had kissed a girl in public.
It's so weird. At this point I think all of our friends have figured out that T is gay. But she never had one of those public coming out moments. As far as I know the only people she ever directly said the words I am Gay to were me and her family. But I think Heather knows, and Gayle, and Mel, and Lib, and Adrienne, and Dave prolly since hes got Gaydar. She never really needed to come out since everyone just kinda KNEW!
Man I hope she doesn't kill me for writing this entry. This is all pretty personal. Tina, if you dont want any of this info to be public just tell me and I'll make the entry private okay?
Carla
I had an interesting thought last night while drifting off to sleep. (that seems to be the time when I have all my cool thoughts.) I was thinking about my religious faith and at what times I am the most devoted to worship. I realized that I turn most heavily to religion in times of great emotional turmoil (like now) and during times of great happiness and achievement (like last year.) It's only when I am somewhere in the gray middle that religion becomes pointless. Neutrality does not foster religious ferver.
Now this seems mighty odd to me since wicca always emphasizes the need for balance, the usefulness of complete integration. But it looks to me that people are drawn to religion in times of exteme emotional swing. Therefore it is imbalance itself that makes religion necessary to humans. It is emotional extremes that religion helps us to weather. If one were totally balanced, would they need religion at all? And why advocate something that essentially spells out the end of religion?
Francesca DeGrandis inspired this train of thought. There was a chapter in "Be A Goddess" in which she talks about the inhibiting aspects of balance, and the healthy expression and usefulnes of extreme emotions. I'm not sure what I think of her ideas yet, obviously I'm still pondering. In any case, I find the idea fascinating if only for the fact that it goes aganist all of my other Wiccan teachings.
Cin Salach was here last night and gave a really fun reading. As usual I sat with Adrienne. During the reading I had this overwhelming urge to kiss her that I didn't act on because I wasn't sure if it would be kosher. So instead I just bit her sweater. Yeah, I'm weird. Anyway, I was thinking how inept I felt when kissing her at the party. I mean it was so quick and forced, I don't feel like I did a very good job. I wish I could get her in a nice calm situation where I could REALLY kiss her. Where I could show off my talents and kiss her the way she deserves to be kissed. *sigh*
And speaking of kissing, I found out last night that Tina has been getting a little kissing action from one of our friends. I'm not going to name names because I don't think either of them really want this spread around, but suffice to say it is someone I didn't think was gay. But now it appears that she is, and T says they have been kissing every night since the party. I say GOOD FOR TINA! Last night apparently they kissed in the Gizmo after Cin's reading and T was very excited because it was the first time she had kissed a girl in public.
It's so weird. At this point I think all of our friends have figured out that T is gay. But she never had one of those public coming out moments. As far as I know the only people she ever directly said the words I am Gay to were me and her family. But I think Heather knows, and Gayle, and Mel, and Lib, and Adrienne, and Dave prolly since hes got Gaydar. She never really needed to come out since everyone just kinda KNEW!
Man I hope she doesn't kill me for writing this entry. This is all pretty personal. Tina, if you dont want any of this info to be public just tell me and I'll make the entry private okay?
Carla
