Let's get this party started

I’ve always though online journals were stupid. I mean, isn’t the entire point of a journal that you keep it to yourself? So why am I doing this you ask? Well, because I haven’t kept a regular journal in almost two years. The last six months have been rough (more on that later) and I think it would do me good to keep one again. But I’m so awful at making time to write I figure I'll be motivated if I think I have an audience. Everyone likes to think they are important to throngs of people sometimes. You know you’ve had dreams of being a rock star, don’t lie!

I don’t want this first entry to be just an informational page, you know this is my name this is where I am from, blah blah blah, I've read too much of that already. So I'm just going to jump right into the events of my life and if you read them you will come to know me.

Anyway it’s almost 1:00 out here in Illinois. I woke up an hour ago just so I could watch Law and Order and IM my boyfriend Kevin. I don’t have classes on Monday, Wednesday or Friday, so I could conceivably sleep till 4 but that makes it hard to get up on Tuesdays and Thursdays. So I use Law and Order as my prime motivator for getting out of bed on those days.

Today I actually have stuff to do. At 4 I have to go to a reading on campus. We have this thing here called Weekly Forum where one or two writing students read their work in progress to the campus. It’s kind of cool but it’s pretty elitist. The students who run it are the same students who run the lit mag and they are this clique unto themselves and do not respect any of the writers who are not in their circle. They will never ask me to read. So, naturally I hate the bastards. But I’m still gonna show support and go to the reading. Aren’t I a grown up?

Then at 8 I have to go to the Alternative Spiritualities Klub (ASK) meeting. our first of the year because last term the entire club was busy and could never find a time to schedule a meeting. Basically we sit around and talk about anything that isn’t Christianity. I’m hoping a lot of people will come out for tonight’s meeting.

Plus I have a philosophy paper to write and a short story to work on. Man, I guess I’m busier then I thought I was. Better get on it. Talk later.

Killing Time

All went well today. The reading was your typical weird experimental poetry shit. Not the kind of stuff I would read if i found it in a book, but fun none the less. It was an hour where I basically got to zone out and relax with some of my intellectual writing buddies who I don't see very often so that was nice.

I'm killing time before I go to the Ask meeting. I've been doing homework for most of the afternoon so Im a little zonked. but its my own fault for not starting it sooner. Hey at least i got to sleep until noon.

Its kind of dark in my room. I'm trying not to make much noise because my roommate Tina is asleep. She works harder than I do and gets only a fraction of the rest. She is always complaining that i sleep to much. I tell her she should have tried to schedule her classes so shecould sleep as well. Its her own damn fault.

I just had a smoke and it isn't sitting well with me. I suppose thats a cue for me to start weening myself off them. I'm not a compulsive smoker. I only smoke when I'm depressed. I started up again this september after a two year hiatus. Within the course of a week I had to drop a class, my then boyfriend broke up with me and terrorists decided to take a huge chunk out of my hometown. if thats not reason to smoke I dont know what is. I got so depressed I even had to stat taking meds again. I was scared at first because I shudder at the thought of being one of those chronically depressed people who is on and off medication throughout her life. But I needed it at the time. it was the only thing that was going to level me off enough to make it through the term.

I'm sleepy think I'm gonna lie down now.

ciao.