morrigirl | Killing Time

All went well today. The reading was your typical weird experimental poetry shit. Not the kind of stuff I would read if i found it in a book, but fun none the less. It was an hour where I basically got to zone out and relax with some of my intellectual writing buddies who I don't see very often so that was nice.

I'm killing time before I go to the Ask meeting. I've been doing homework for most of the afternoon so Im a little zonked. but its my own fault for not starting it sooner. Hey at least i got to sleep until noon.

Its kind of dark in my room. I'm trying not to make much noise because my roommate Tina is asleep. She works harder than I do and gets only a fraction of the rest. She is always complaining that i sleep to much. I tell her she should have tried to schedule her classes so shecould sleep as well. Its her own damn fault.

I just had a smoke and it isn't sitting well with me. I suppose thats a cue for me to start weening myself off them. I'm not a compulsive smoker. I only smoke when I'm depressed. I started up again this september after a two year hiatus. Within the course of a week I had to drop a class, my then boyfriend broke up with me and terrorists decided to take a huge chunk out of my hometown. if thats not reason to smoke I dont know what is. I got so depressed I even had to stat taking meds again. I was scared at first because I shudder at the thought of being one of those chronically depressed people who is on and off medication throughout her life. But I needed it at the time. it was the only thing that was going to level me off enough to make it through the term.

I'm sleepy think I'm gonna lie down now.

ciao.