morrigirl | Dating for Dummies

GAH! I can't sleep. I want to sleep because I have a splitting headache that I can't get rid of brought on ny the tremendous (sp?) volume my mother must listen to the television at. A word to the wise: if you value your own hearing never live with a person who is losing theirs.

Latest dating revelation: I have nothing to say to anyone who shows interest in me. I don't know why but at the moment guys who "want to get to know me better" have become the most boring creatures. *shrugs*

And on another note: I want to be friends first. I want a relationship that starts out friendly and then over several weeks or months, or even years, gradually grows into something more. I have no use for this instant relationship bull.

And while we're on the subject: As much as I frown upon long distance relationships it has come to my attention that I am no good at anything else. All of my serious involements have been long distance. Jason, Danni, Marc, Kevin, even Josh although he was hardly what one would call serious. it's all I've ever really done, so it's all I know how to do. I don't know how to be in a relationship with someone I have to see on a regular basis. And while I used to long to meet someone with the patience to teach me how to physically BE in a relationship, I've pretty much given up hope, mainly because I think on some unconscious level I really LIKE all my long distance shit.

It allows a relationship to remain largely in the realm of fantasy, and we all know how much I love fantasy. Long distance let's me deal with a person when I want to, upon my own terms. And best of all they don't interfere with my daily life. I can still read my books, and watch my television and not have to worry about making time for someone apart from my happy fantasy land.

Hence, today's explanation for why I can't date like a normal person is: Because I hate reality.

Tune in tomorrow to see what hairbrained explanation Carla can come up with next.