What have I been up to?
Oct. 29th, 2003 07:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigirlI hate updating at this hour. The servers are all busy and it takes three or four tries for me to load a page. Time after time I get a proxy error. It pisses me off. But there really isn't much else to do at work on a slow night.
Have you noticed how much I'm hating everything these days?I've become a seething bottomless pit of hatred. *shrugs* Eh, I suppose there are worse things to be.
I've spoken to Other Mike on the phone every night this week. We generally spend two or three hours just catching each other up on our days. It's been nice. I come home from work around 10:30, he calls, and then we just talk till midnight or one o'clock. I love coming home and having someone to talk to who is not related to me! Coming home to Mike, so to speak, is quite a treat because he is such a gas. He has me in stitches until we hang up, it's great. And now I'll have to end this paragraph because I know if I don't I'm just going to continue my gratuitous use of the word "it's."
Speaking of people who are related to me, ya know how I always say my Mom and I get along fine when we're not living together? Well since I started my job I've seen so little of her that it seems like I'm living alone! I wake up after she has gone to work, and I get home just as she is going to bed. It's fucking great! Same deal with Laura, haven't seen her in a week or so. I'm sure we are all happier for it. I like having the apartment to myself, without my Mom constantly looking over my shoulder and criticizing every little thing I do. And I'm sure she enjoys not having a daughter around who she feels the costant need to correct.
And here's a mile stone: last night was the first that I haven't played The Sims since I bought the game. It's starting to lose it's appeal. The Hot Date expansion may have added some cool new objects to the game, but it has also made conversations between characters harder. It's darn near impossible to get two dissimilar characters to like each other now, even on a completely superficial level. Have to use the Magic Mirror if I want anyone to make friends. And that's no fun. I'm still buying Makin Magic though. But not until I get my first paycheck, which will come next week with any luck.
My work week is almost over. It went pretty fast. Seems like yesterday that Sebastien walked me up to 64th street. I gotta do laundry. Now, my days off are completely devoted to laundry. Usually that's not a problem, but this week I have no quarters so...:-/...yeah. And I only own a weeks worth of work clothes. I tried going down to Loft last week to buy new work shirts, but I didn't like any of the stuff they had down there.
Here's the problem with being a size 14: I have rolls. Big ones. Ones that are big enough to be considered unsightly. So naturally I want to wear clothing that not only looks nice on me but hides those pesky rolls. Only trouble is skin tight clothing is all the fashion right now. All the shirts, all the skirts, all the pants, are designed to hug your every curve, and by extension, you every unsightly roll. So I try on shirts and they just look A W F U L on me. Even XL's inch up over my tummy when I walk, and show off every roll on my fleshy back. It's gross. And I (surprise surprise) HATE that I can't find clothing in any store that is designed to make me look good!!! What the fuck? You know why no one likes looking at fat people? Because no one bothers to design clothing that make us pleasing to the eye!!! To illustrate my point let's consider the opposite end of the spectrum: anorexixcally thin girls. Now honestly, them chicks aren't nice to look at. Elbows so sharp they could slice a fucking turkey, torsos with so little meat you can count their god damn ribs, BLECH! Yet NO ONE minds staring at these chicks, and why? Because most fashion designers design their clothing SPECIFICALLY FOR that weight group. These women grace the runways of every major designer. Which of course leads to media coverage and the construction of an unrealistic beauty standard for women, but I'm in no mood to delve into the whole beauty politic. I'm just bitching. And I bitch that women size 14 and above should have the opportunity to wear clothing that make them look HOT!!!
Have you noticed how much I'm hating everything these days?I've become a seething bottomless pit of hatred. *shrugs* Eh, I suppose there are worse things to be.
I've spoken to Other Mike on the phone every night this week. We generally spend two or three hours just catching each other up on our days. It's been nice. I come home from work around 10:30, he calls, and then we just talk till midnight or one o'clock. I love coming home and having someone to talk to who is not related to me! Coming home to Mike, so to speak, is quite a treat because he is such a gas. He has me in stitches until we hang up, it's great. And now I'll have to end this paragraph because I know if I don't I'm just going to continue my gratuitous use of the word "it's."
Speaking of people who are related to me, ya know how I always say my Mom and I get along fine when we're not living together? Well since I started my job I've seen so little of her that it seems like I'm living alone! I wake up after she has gone to work, and I get home just as she is going to bed. It's fucking great! Same deal with Laura, haven't seen her in a week or so. I'm sure we are all happier for it. I like having the apartment to myself, without my Mom constantly looking over my shoulder and criticizing every little thing I do. And I'm sure she enjoys not having a daughter around who she feels the costant need to correct.
And here's a mile stone: last night was the first that I haven't played The Sims since I bought the game. It's starting to lose it's appeal. The Hot Date expansion may have added some cool new objects to the game, but it has also made conversations between characters harder. It's darn near impossible to get two dissimilar characters to like each other now, even on a completely superficial level. Have to use the Magic Mirror if I want anyone to make friends. And that's no fun. I'm still buying Makin Magic though. But not until I get my first paycheck, which will come next week with any luck.
My work week is almost over. It went pretty fast. Seems like yesterday that Sebastien walked me up to 64th street. I gotta do laundry. Now, my days off are completely devoted to laundry. Usually that's not a problem, but this week I have no quarters so...:-/...yeah. And I only own a weeks worth of work clothes. I tried going down to Loft last week to buy new work shirts, but I didn't like any of the stuff they had down there.
Here's the problem with being a size 14: I have rolls. Big ones. Ones that are big enough to be considered unsightly. So naturally I want to wear clothing that not only looks nice on me but hides those pesky rolls. Only trouble is skin tight clothing is all the fashion right now. All the shirts, all the skirts, all the pants, are designed to hug your every curve, and by extension, you every unsightly roll. So I try on shirts and they just look A W F U L on me. Even XL's inch up over my tummy when I walk, and show off every roll on my fleshy back. It's gross. And I (surprise surprise) HATE that I can't find clothing in any store that is designed to make me look good!!! What the fuck? You know why no one likes looking at fat people? Because no one bothers to design clothing that make us pleasing to the eye!!! To illustrate my point let's consider the opposite end of the spectrum: anorexixcally thin girls. Now honestly, them chicks aren't nice to look at. Elbows so sharp they could slice a fucking turkey, torsos with so little meat you can count their god damn ribs, BLECH! Yet NO ONE minds staring at these chicks, and why? Because most fashion designers design their clothing SPECIFICALLY FOR that weight group. These women grace the runways of every major designer. Which of course leads to media coverage and the construction of an unrealistic beauty standard for women, but I'm in no mood to delve into the whole beauty politic. I'm just bitching. And I bitch that women size 14 and above should have the opportunity to wear clothing that make them look HOT!!!
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Date: 2003-10-30 08:21 am (UTC)I still have no problem with what I've seen of your appearance.....I think you're cute.
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Date: 2003-10-30 11:24 pm (UTC)