Carlita Says
Oct. 16th, 2003 06:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigirlSometimes it's hard being the new girl. The newest worker besides myself is Sebastian who has been here three years, so at a minimum, my co-workers have had three years, and in some cases more, to get to know each other. They are their own cohesive working unit, their own clique, and there are times when I feel left out of the crowd. Like today when Mary summoned Seb and Charles to listen to a funny story she had to tell. The three of them stood at the back of the cric desk laughing and carrying on, and I just sat in the fornt, reading my book, catching only a stray chuckle.
Everyone here is so buddy-buddy with one another. I feel like an island much of the time. The lone girl that no one knows quite what to do with. I wonder if they will ever grow that comfortable with me? I'm not the most friendly or welcoming human being on earth. On the weekends when it's just me and Sebastian, and at night when it's me and Lymon, I'm okay because there isn't anyone else around to compare myself to. I don't compare my relationship with Seb to his relationship with, say Jennifer for example, ya know? There is no network of relationships I am isolated from.
I've got a headache today. And i'm tired. Don't know why though. I slept for 8 hours last night, I've eaten today, I should be fine. Well...it is kinda hot here in the library. We don't have AC. And whil;e it's definitely not scorching hot outside, it;s still warm enough to warrent the use of cooling mechanisms like fans. But they aren't helping. I think I'm gonna need to go on break soon, get me some ice cream or something. I had ice cream on my break last night. it was GOOOOOOD!!!!!!!
Michael called this morning before I left for work. Says he's coming over tomorrw to keep me company while I take care of all my domestic, day-off business, like doing laundry, and mailing Gayle's birthday present. Yeah, we'll see. He's done nothing but forget about me all week long so I'm not holding my breath.
Everyone here is so buddy-buddy with one another. I feel like an island much of the time. The lone girl that no one knows quite what to do with. I wonder if they will ever grow that comfortable with me? I'm not the most friendly or welcoming human being on earth. On the weekends when it's just me and Sebastian, and at night when it's me and Lymon, I'm okay because there isn't anyone else around to compare myself to. I don't compare my relationship with Seb to his relationship with, say Jennifer for example, ya know? There is no network of relationships I am isolated from.
I've got a headache today. And i'm tired. Don't know why though. I slept for 8 hours last night, I've eaten today, I should be fine. Well...it is kinda hot here in the library. We don't have AC. And whil;e it's definitely not scorching hot outside, it;s still warm enough to warrent the use of cooling mechanisms like fans. But they aren't helping. I think I'm gonna need to go on break soon, get me some ice cream or something. I had ice cream on my break last night. it was GOOOOOOD!!!!!!!
Michael called this morning before I left for work. Says he's coming over tomorrw to keep me company while I take care of all my domestic, day-off business, like doing laundry, and mailing Gayle's birthday present. Yeah, we'll see. He's done nothing but forget about me all week long so I'm not holding my breath.
