Don't Call Me Shirley - SCN
Jul. 21st, 2003 11:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigirlIt's gonna happen this week. Or at least it's suppose to. Oh man it BETTER happen. This laptop is on it's last legs. Mom SAYS she plans on going over to Mike's sometime this week so she can order my new computer. I'm beginning to wonder why the hell she feels the need to go all the way down to 28th street when she could just as easily order it from this house, from this very computer I'm currently typing on. I mean good lord, it's been a month since graduation and two weeks since I decided which computer I wanted. She needs to get on the ball.
Like I said, this laptop is dying a slow and painful death, and the one in Laura's room is nightmarishly slow. We could all use something a little fast and more reliable.
Not to mention the fact that I need someting to type my poems on. I need to start formatting the suckers so I can submit them to lit mags. I have a couple that are done and could be mass mailed out TOMORROW if I had the means to type and print them.
Unfortunately, I just recently realized how hard it's going to be for me to type during the evenings. We're putting the new computer (when it gets here) in the living room. Which means that from 7 PM - 12 AM on any given night, Mom will be blaring the TV and making it impossible for me to concentrate. Sure a computer is great for surfing the internet, but my primary interest in having one is so I can type and write. A writer is dead in the water without the correct tools. And while at the moment, it doesn't matter that I can't type in the evenings, because I'm usually up all night and can have quiet time after every goes to bed, when I get a regular job, my hours are gonna change and I'm gonna need those evening hours if I want to get anything done artistically. She may have to go watch TV in her room once or twice a week. Or I may have to learn how to block out the excessive noise. Or maybe we could find a compromise.
I'm still terrified to email my resumes out. I have over ten exclusively online leads for jobs, and I'm really qualified for all of them, but I'm just so afraid that I'll format my email wrong and be rejected before they even look at my resume that I can't even bring myself to send it!!! I can't stand this!!! I wish someone would tell me the rules!!! Then I could format and send, confident that I had done the best job I was capable of.
There's more but...I've lost my motivation to write. Thinking about things that scare you can do that.
Like I said, this laptop is dying a slow and painful death, and the one in Laura's room is nightmarishly slow. We could all use something a little fast and more reliable.
Not to mention the fact that I need someting to type my poems on. I need to start formatting the suckers so I can submit them to lit mags. I have a couple that are done and could be mass mailed out TOMORROW if I had the means to type and print them.
Unfortunately, I just recently realized how hard it's going to be for me to type during the evenings. We're putting the new computer (when it gets here) in the living room. Which means that from 7 PM - 12 AM on any given night, Mom will be blaring the TV and making it impossible for me to concentrate. Sure a computer is great for surfing the internet, but my primary interest in having one is so I can type and write. A writer is dead in the water without the correct tools. And while at the moment, it doesn't matter that I can't type in the evenings, because I'm usually up all night and can have quiet time after every goes to bed, when I get a regular job, my hours are gonna change and I'm gonna need those evening hours if I want to get anything done artistically. She may have to go watch TV in her room once or twice a week. Or I may have to learn how to block out the excessive noise. Or maybe we could find a compromise.
I'm still terrified to email my resumes out. I have over ten exclusively online leads for jobs, and I'm really qualified for all of them, but I'm just so afraid that I'll format my email wrong and be rejected before they even look at my resume that I can't even bring myself to send it!!! I can't stand this!!! I wish someone would tell me the rules!!! Then I could format and send, confident that I had done the best job I was capable of.
There's more but...I've lost my motivation to write. Thinking about things that scare you can do that.
