Night Life - SCN
Jul. 14th, 2003 03:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigirlThe worst thing about staying up all night is the tedium. What is there to do after midnight? There's nothing much on TV, you can't go anywhere, and by three AM you've read all your books, eaten all your snacks, and surfed anything worth surfing on the internet. That's when boredom sets in.
And in your boredom, you think. First, about what else you might do to ward off the boredom, and when you fail to come up with anything, your mind starts to wander. You think about all the things you didn't do that day and why you didn't do them. You think of the friends you haven't spoken to, and the errands you didn't run. Before you know it you are sitting in the dark over analyzing your entire existence and coming to the conclusion that you are a worthless human being who has never done anything useful in your life!
The old adage is true: idle hands are the Devil's playground, and the night time gives you no choice but to be idle. Alone in a sleeping house it's hard not to withdraw into yourself. It's hard not to reflect, and it's even harder to find anything positive to say about yourself. No wonder insomnia and depression go hand in hand: you stay up all night you're bound to get depressed after a few weeks!!!
I feel idle. I feel it at night when I'm awake and trapped. Can't do anything productive late at night. So I just have to sit, and rediscover all the dark creatures creeping around in my head.
And in your boredom, you think. First, about what else you might do to ward off the boredom, and when you fail to come up with anything, your mind starts to wander. You think about all the things you didn't do that day and why you didn't do them. You think of the friends you haven't spoken to, and the errands you didn't run. Before you know it you are sitting in the dark over analyzing your entire existence and coming to the conclusion that you are a worthless human being who has never done anything useful in your life!
The old adage is true: idle hands are the Devil's playground, and the night time gives you no choice but to be idle. Alone in a sleeping house it's hard not to withdraw into yourself. It's hard not to reflect, and it's even harder to find anything positive to say about yourself. No wonder insomnia and depression go hand in hand: you stay up all night you're bound to get depressed after a few weeks!!!
I feel idle. I feel it at night when I'm awake and trapped. Can't do anything productive late at night. So I just have to sit, and rediscover all the dark creatures creeping around in my head.
