This Doesn't Feel Right

[morrigirl]

It is 3:00 AM and I can't sleep because I'm freaking out over this apartment. I started thinking about the layout and where I'd put all my crap if I were to move in and I realized there was one thing I really didn't like about this place, the primary room! I liked the kitchen, I liked the bathroom, but the actual studio really turned me off. It didn't have many electrical outlets. The whole room had those little heating vents that stick out from the bottom of the walls, you know what I mean? The sort of vents that, when you actually try to put furniture in a room significantly reduce the amount of room you thought you had because you can't push the furniture right up against the wall? Though I could fit all my furniture in, the placement of the closets and the vents would make it tough to arrange anything in an physically comfortable or convenient way.

I'm getting this feeling in my gut that this isn't right. The location may be right, the price may be right, the kitchen, the bathroom, but if the room I'd be spending the most time in doesn't feel right, doesn't that kill the whole point? I wish I could go back and look at it again, but I said I'd give a definite answer tomorrow morning. Micky had gotten A LOT of calls about the apartment, five while I was there this afternoon, there are many people who are interested in it and I simply don't have the time to be all like "Hey, you know I'm not sure about this, can I see the place one more time and then have another couple days to mull it over?" God, even now as I'm writing this my whole body is saying "NO!" My stomach is all fluttery, my shoulders are tense, my neck is stiff. Just imagining living in that room makes me...unhappy.

Now I really don't know what to do. I want to go to sleep. I'm really tired. But I know I won't be able to until I figure out what I want to do. And I can't :-(

Comments

[slinkybetty.livejournal.com]

Hmmmm... I know I said the price was awesome, but if your gut feeling is telling you it's not a right decision, then you might regret moving there.

How much do you pay in rent now, if you don't mind me asking?

[morrigirl.livejournal.com]

I took it. I think I was freaking out because I was looking at it the wrong way. I was worrying that if I was miserable for whatever reason then I'd be stuck there forever which....is bunk. Once I got that through my noggin the decision became really easy and right now I feel comfortable with it.

At the momet I'm paying $550 a month for a studio apartment in the attic of a converted two family house. The studio is about 14 x 17, has a very small bathroom, and that's it. No kitchen. I have a mini fridge and a toaster oven. It's very dorm-like. There's little to no heat in the winter. When I took it I was making significantly less money than I am now and 550 was all I could afford. The place served its purpose but now I need to live somewhere that is big enough to allow me to live like a normal human being.

Do you live alone or do you have roomates?

[slinkybetty.livejournal.com]

It really did sound like a good deal to me. I'm glad you took it. A full kitchen is always a plus. I had a freak out too, when I moved into my current place a few months ago. I was living in Pelham Bay and it was a super convenient, so I was unsure if I wanted to move all the way out here to the water where the nearest store/bar/restaurant/bank was almost a mile away. I'm glad I made the decision. The scenery is nice, the apartment is MUCH nicer, and I'm on month-to-month myself, so if I ever wanted to move out I could.

Right now I am sans-roommate. Thank heavens, I had two roommates this summer and it got a little too crowded.