...she never been in love, she don't know what it is, she only knows if someone wants her.

[morrigirl]

I want 'em if they want me
I only know they want me

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How would you describe me as a person? If you were telling someone about your friend Carla what would you say? What words would you use? Honestly? I'm not fishing for compliments I want to know the God's honest truth, so don't be afraid to list negative qualities. Please, be blunt. If you don't know me in real life or only have this journal to draw your conclusions from that's fine. I'm not much different in person. I'm actually peppier if you can believe it, but that's beside the point. Point is I want to know how you see me. I need to know.

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For those of you who aren't already hitched or engaged, do you think you'll ever get married? I don't care if you want to. Wanting something and being in a position to get it are two separate things. Looking ahead from your current point in life can you honestly see yourself getting married one day?

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We hauled my AC, TV, and printer up to the Bronx today. Tried to install the AC but couldn't because I have storm windows and as such need a huge block of wood to stick under it so it doesn't fall out the window. No wood was readily availible so we gave up. Took Michael to White castle afterwards. He was happy as a pig in shit. Afterwards we took mom to the 99 cent store. Hog heaven. I like my neighborhood.

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I'm gonna kick tomorrow

Comments

[kdc4evr.livejournal.com]

Is it weird that when asked to describe you the first thing I think of is a color?

Carla is Red. I should elaborate. Hm. Carla is a wonderful friend who is always there for you when you need her. She sometimes tells you things you don't want to hear but she speaks the truth. She hates getting unsolicited advice. She likes TV, especially Homicide & Buffy, good books, neopets, and the Sims. She likes old school hip hop. She can be a bit of a loner sometimes, but you just have to drag her out of it. She's great at a lot of things, like writing and acting and singing, but most of the time she doesn't believe it so she needs reminding. Sometimes she just needs a kick in the pants. Then she can be incredibly self-confident.
Sometimes she gets depressed, I don't know what to do then, but she usually does cause she always brings herself out of it eventually. She does things on her own time schedule.
Carla is going to do amazing things, although she won't believe you if you tell her so. She knows her limits & she knows her breaking point and she knows when to get out so she's not pushed to the edge. Sometimes she mistakes/confuses physical affection for emotional affection & it's not good for her psyche. She's a physcially affectionate person. She knows just what to do to cheer you up. She's not afraid to do crazy things, because she knows that they're fun. She's nice & she doesn't tease you or laugh at you when you do something stupid. She's a picky eater. That one just popped into my head cause I have to finish making my mac & cheese.

And yes, I think I'll get married someday. I can't see myself being single the rest of my life. I'm going to get married & have kids and be all suburban & be an embarrassing soccer mom. I'm also going to be one of those women who's way too old to be at a show.

[acsnavely.livejournal.com]

i think carla is really smart... and a good person to learn from.
though we dont really talk much, i think of you a lot when im doing writing courses and whatnot for school, because you have already gone through all of that and write frequently about what direction such an educational pursuit has pointed you in. even though im right in the beginning of all the school stuff, its kind of nice to "glance ahead" of what i could become if i train myself to make my writing more... lucid... i guess. it seems that no matter what type of situation you are in, you are ALWAYS able to relay it in a clear, lucid form... where as i just tend to blabber on and on...
i think youre a very good writer.



as for the "will i ever get married" thing...
no.
i really doubt it.
if i had to weigh the whole "pro and con" thing, i couldnt really push myself one way or the other... but realistically, i honestly dont see myself being in a relationship where someone would want to spent the rest of their life with me in that form.
i dont think im "eternal love" material.
aside from all the personal hang-ups, i see myself as too job-oriented to have the time to pursue a family, etc.
le sigh.

Carla

[prettypurplebrd.livejournal.com]

Carla is a lovely person, a fantastic writer, a good listener...but sometimes a bit mopey...although, who isn't mopey from time to time?

Marriage = No.