I'm So Stupid
Apr. 11th, 2002 08:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigirlI am such a moron! I forgot that I had a radio show this afternoon! So I was sitting at home typing my earlier entries while Rob was up in the station wondering why the next DJ hadn't shown up! I can't believe I did this...AGAIN! Last term I missed...what? 2 or 3 shows? I haven't missed 2 or 3 shows in the entire 4 years I've been doing this! But I can just never remember when I'm supposed to go anymore. I'm always just so tired and grumpy that all I want to do is go home, watch TV, and sleep. I don't want to try and entertain a listening audience. Toby will probably fire me now. Maybe it's for the best. Maybe I've just been doing this for too long. I haven't really been enjoying it at all this year. Maybe I should just resign and let someone else have my slot. It's an option.
Also I can't think of anything to write for my homework. I have yet to turn in any written work in my teaching class, we have a short assignment due tomorrow and I can't think of anything to write. I had an idea yesterday but right now I just cant find the words. And I want to work on my intro but I don't have the words to do that either. Maybe I should just throw in the towel. Goddess all I do these days is....nothing really. I don't even sleep. I just find new ways to waste time. The computer is my current favorite (as you can see.) I also watch too much TV, and do a lot of laundry. Goddess could I be any dorkier?
And while I'm beating myself up, can I tell you how fat I feel! I know I'm not fat. 140 isn't fat, not at my height. But I feel it. None of my clothes fit anymore, they don't look good on me and I can't afford to buy new ones. And now its starting to be spring so I want to look pretty and wear all my tight fitting and sexy clothes, but I can't because they make me look bad. I'm such a lump. All I do is eat and sit on my ass. I should start walking again but I have no energy or motivation for it.
I feel ugly and lazy and stupid, and irresponsible.
Also I can't think of anything to write for my homework. I have yet to turn in any written work in my teaching class, we have a short assignment due tomorrow and I can't think of anything to write. I had an idea yesterday but right now I just cant find the words. And I want to work on my intro but I don't have the words to do that either. Maybe I should just throw in the towel. Goddess all I do these days is....nothing really. I don't even sleep. I just find new ways to waste time. The computer is my current favorite (as you can see.) I also watch too much TV, and do a lot of laundry. Goddess could I be any dorkier?
And while I'm beating myself up, can I tell you how fat I feel! I know I'm not fat. 140 isn't fat, not at my height. But I feel it. None of my clothes fit anymore, they don't look good on me and I can't afford to buy new ones. And now its starting to be spring so I want to look pretty and wear all my tight fitting and sexy clothes, but I can't because they make me look bad. I'm such a lump. All I do is eat and sit on my ass. I should start walking again but I have no energy or motivation for it.
I feel ugly and lazy and stupid, and irresponsible.
