Space Oddities
Mar. 3rd, 2002 03:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigirlI'm a bit perplexed. And my perplexion (is that a word?) stems from the journals of my comrads.
1) At dinner Gayle informed me that Lindsey's journal doesn't even exist any more. I wouldn't know because I haven't been checking it. But Gayle says it's there but that the back ground and lettering are black so you can't read anything and furthermore that there is an entry count of zero.
2) Just read Mary's entry about how things fall apart where she laments the disinteration of the "group." She talked about how I don't seem like I'm in the GROUP anymore, how she feels more like Linds, Dave, and Gayle are her group blah blah blah
I'm a bit amused that Lindsey has had such a strong reaction to this. Can't just ignore me like a normal human being no no, she must do passive aggressive things like delete her journal and block me from her IM list to let me know without telling me directly that she is pissed and plans to stay that way. Hmm. Typical Lindsey though, not ballsy enough to actually continue on with her life as usual. Has to turn our fight into one big melodramatic moment.
And Mary...I'm confused as to why she is even still lamenting the disintergation of this group. We have all so obviously out grown each other. Why does one need to lament that? I mean I'm not one for change, in fact I hate it and try to avaiod it at all cost. But why is she so scared of the future and so tied to this tranistory past we share? College is a pit stop, she knows that. I'm not friends with most of the people I was friends with my freshman and sophomore year. Why? Because I don't want to be. I don't want to be friends with Mary anymore because she has proven to be unreliable and inconsiderate. Ditto for Leigh, ditto for Lindsey. Sure I miss what we all once had but the time has come for all of it to be over and done with.
Why are people so oppose to letting things go once they are worn out? Why hold onto a past that cannot be recreated?
I think, and this is something I have noticed throughout my stay here at Knox, people around here are way too scared of being hated. They think social upheaval leads to hatred. Not necessarily. I've been hated all my life. No matter who hates me I can always find new people who do not. That's what happens. When my friends don't like me anymore or vice versa, I go find some new ones.
Everyone around here seems to think that they have to hold on to what they have, to maintain the current social order, or else they won't have any new friends. Which is absurd because they all leave this pit stop in 3 months. They are gonna have to learn to swim without the help of their social life preserver.
1) At dinner Gayle informed me that Lindsey's journal doesn't even exist any more. I wouldn't know because I haven't been checking it. But Gayle says it's there but that the back ground and lettering are black so you can't read anything and furthermore that there is an entry count of zero.
2) Just read Mary's entry about how things fall apart where she laments the disinteration of the "group." She talked about how I don't seem like I'm in the GROUP anymore, how she feels more like Linds, Dave, and Gayle are her group blah blah blah
I'm a bit amused that Lindsey has had such a strong reaction to this. Can't just ignore me like a normal human being no no, she must do passive aggressive things like delete her journal and block me from her IM list to let me know without telling me directly that she is pissed and plans to stay that way. Hmm. Typical Lindsey though, not ballsy enough to actually continue on with her life as usual. Has to turn our fight into one big melodramatic moment.
And Mary...I'm confused as to why she is even still lamenting the disintergation of this group. We have all so obviously out grown each other. Why does one need to lament that? I mean I'm not one for change, in fact I hate it and try to avaiod it at all cost. But why is she so scared of the future and so tied to this tranistory past we share? College is a pit stop, she knows that. I'm not friends with most of the people I was friends with my freshman and sophomore year. Why? Because I don't want to be. I don't want to be friends with Mary anymore because she has proven to be unreliable and inconsiderate. Ditto for Leigh, ditto for Lindsey. Sure I miss what we all once had but the time has come for all of it to be over and done with.
Why are people so oppose to letting things go once they are worn out? Why hold onto a past that cannot be recreated?
I think, and this is something I have noticed throughout my stay here at Knox, people around here are way too scared of being hated. They think social upheaval leads to hatred. Not necessarily. I've been hated all my life. No matter who hates me I can always find new people who do not. That's what happens. When my friends don't like me anymore or vice versa, I go find some new ones.
Everyone around here seems to think that they have to hold on to what they have, to maintain the current social order, or else they won't have any new friends. Which is absurd because they all leave this pit stop in 3 months. They are gonna have to learn to swim without the help of their social life preserver.
