Strange Little Girl
Feb. 10th, 2002 09:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigirlOkay, Gemma just made me feel better about Gayle and Wes. She was reminding me of all the reasons one REALLY doesn't want to get mixed up with him, two of the most salient reasons being Heather Holmquest and Mary Morales. Any additional female competition would be on the receiveing end of much of their hostility. Who the hell needs that! And she was telling me about how Wes is one of those guys who expects his girl to deal with all his problems while he refuses to deal with their's (Kevin anyone?) And once again, I dont need that shit. So I don't have to worry about competing with Gayle, I dont think I really want Wes. Last night was just a result of feeling lonely and reaching for any guy I could imagine.
Also I spoke to Moses online for like two hours today. Pretty inbeleivable. And surprisingly enough he made me feel a bit better too. He's feeling rather lonely himself, so it was just nice to talk to someone and know that I wasn't the only one feeling this way. He made me laugh. Plus it was comforting to talk to a guy who I know is never going to make a pass at me, so I didn't have to worry about what I was saying to him. I didn't have to impress him. I was just able to be myself and be honest and say what was on my mind. Very refreshing. I think Moses and I may be headed into the territory that Clark and I currently occupy. That place where the two of us have just been through so much shit together, that it is pointless to hold resentments or to hide what we are feeling. I like that.
Right now I'm taking a break from homework. Not that I have gotten much done today seeing as I dint get up until 3. Goddess now my sleeping schedule is really gonna be fucked up!
And I did get to talk to Paul last night. He is so sweet to me. I was just like, hardcore flipping out and crying and shit and he wouldn't leave me until I started feeling better. Now there is some fucking devotion for you. I swear if he didn't live in Toronto I would totally be throwing myself at him. He is SOOOOOO sweet.
Kevin is off on his date tonight. Let's see, got rid of the idea of Wes, now I just gotta get rid of the idea of Kevin.
Suggestions? Anyone?
Also I spoke to Moses online for like two hours today. Pretty inbeleivable. And surprisingly enough he made me feel a bit better too. He's feeling rather lonely himself, so it was just nice to talk to someone and know that I wasn't the only one feeling this way. He made me laugh. Plus it was comforting to talk to a guy who I know is never going to make a pass at me, so I didn't have to worry about what I was saying to him. I didn't have to impress him. I was just able to be myself and be honest and say what was on my mind. Very refreshing. I think Moses and I may be headed into the territory that Clark and I currently occupy. That place where the two of us have just been through so much shit together, that it is pointless to hold resentments or to hide what we are feeling. I like that.
Right now I'm taking a break from homework. Not that I have gotten much done today seeing as I dint get up until 3. Goddess now my sleeping schedule is really gonna be fucked up!
And I did get to talk to Paul last night. He is so sweet to me. I was just like, hardcore flipping out and crying and shit and he wouldn't leave me until I started feeling better. Now there is some fucking devotion for you. I swear if he didn't live in Toronto I would totally be throwing myself at him. He is SOOOOOO sweet.
Kevin is off on his date tonight. Let's see, got rid of the idea of Wes, now I just gotta get rid of the idea of Kevin.
Suggestions? Anyone?
