Hunter - The Waiting
Feb. 2nd, 2002 08:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigirlAll things considered I guess today has been a fairly decent day. I went to the mall and bought some Ibuprofen which I desperately needed. It was the first time I have been off campus in a week. When I came home Steffi and Tina were playing Tekken. I sat down and did some philosophy reading. I need to do a lot of homework tonight since I didn't do any yesterday.
I wanted to perform a purification ritual tonight but I think Tina plans on being in all night so I'll have to wait till tomorrow.
I woke up this morning feeling somewhat empowered. I was happy about the fact that I was single and that I didn't have to worry about hopping on IM to talk to Kevin, or call him or anything. I just got up and took a nice long shower. I listened to music. I got dressed very slowly. I did stuff that I wanted to do. And there was no one to interfere with it. Don't get me wrong I still feel defective and worthless...but maybe a little less so than i did yesterday.
I ran into Clark today and told him about Kevin and I. He told me he thinks his current relationship is going to tank very soon as well. We've both been on an amazing losing streak romance wise. Neither of us can find someone who respects our fine points enough to learn how to deal with our bad ones. Clark says one day we will show all of them. One day we will both find that amazing someone and then they will see what they missed out on. I hope he is right.
But until then I'm going to do what I do best and thats pretend I'm an intellectual. Emerging myself in school work helps take my mind of my own patheticness. I can focus on other things, important things like getting straight As. (I can dream cant I?)
Well I guess I'm gonna go home now and do my fiction homework. I have to workshop 20 ten page stories by tuesday! Robin is out of his fucking gord!
See you later.
Carla
I wanted to perform a purification ritual tonight but I think Tina plans on being in all night so I'll have to wait till tomorrow.
I woke up this morning feeling somewhat empowered. I was happy about the fact that I was single and that I didn't have to worry about hopping on IM to talk to Kevin, or call him or anything. I just got up and took a nice long shower. I listened to music. I got dressed very slowly. I did stuff that I wanted to do. And there was no one to interfere with it. Don't get me wrong I still feel defective and worthless...but maybe a little less so than i did yesterday.
I ran into Clark today and told him about Kevin and I. He told me he thinks his current relationship is going to tank very soon as well. We've both been on an amazing losing streak romance wise. Neither of us can find someone who respects our fine points enough to learn how to deal with our bad ones. Clark says one day we will show all of them. One day we will both find that amazing someone and then they will see what they missed out on. I hope he is right.
But until then I'm going to do what I do best and thats pretend I'm an intellectual. Emerging myself in school work helps take my mind of my own patheticness. I can focus on other things, important things like getting straight As. (I can dream cant I?)
Well I guess I'm gonna go home now and do my fiction homework. I have to workshop 20 ten page stories by tuesday! Robin is out of his fucking gord!
See you later.
Carla
