Erasure - SCN

I called Alan yesterday. Hadn't heard from him in months. I was afraid he was dead. But he's not. He's still alive and kicking, just very lazy about returning emails, much like myself.

We got to talking about Kirk of course. Alan told me that after Kirk died he had to go through all his saved emails and delete all the ones from Kirk. He took him off his buddy list and basically erased all evidence of his existence. He said it was just too painful to have to look at stuff like that.

I can't imagine doing that, totally erasing someone's existence. I mean, I still have Kirk on my buddy list, I still have the first email he ever wrote me. I wish I hadn't deleted all of the other emails he sent me. I would kill to have more to remember him by. I could never delete anything he wrote me, not on purpose. I guess I just look at those things and think of them as the one thing he left behind. And that makes them special. It makes them worthy of treasuring.

Anyway, I think I'm finally ready to cave and get a Livejournal. So if anyone (Gemma? Cori? Heather?) feels an overwhelming desire to send me a code within the next few days, please act on it :)

Carla