*Grumble Grumble Grumble* - SCN

Okay, I've just finished reading the online journal entries of just about everyone at Knox who has one, and the general sentiment of the campus at large seems to be...

"WHERE'S MY FLUNK DAY!!!!!"

I was saying to Will at lunch today that if it isn't tomorrow (and it won't be,) that this will be the LATEST Flunk Day we've had since Freshman year when it fell on May 4th.

If it isn't on Monday I think there'll be a campus wide uprising during which we will roast members of the Union Board above an open flame.

Seriously, the fact that Flunk Day hasn't happened yet is really fucking with people. Because not only do we have the stress and anticipation of midterms and rapidly approaching finals, but the anticipation of Flunk Day and the knowledge that the later in the term they have it, the worse it'll make the last few weeks of the term, because we'll all be enmeshed in final projects and it'll throw a wrench in our progress!!!

Already I've practically bombed one midterm because of Flunk Day anticipation and stand a good chance of failing another tomorrow all because I've been under the impression that Flunk Day would fall SOME TIME this week thus pushing all my midterms back till next week.

I swear, if we don't get our Flunk Day VERY SOON, heads are gonna start exploding.

Matthew Shepard - SCN

The single most aggrivating thing about doing a report on Matthew Shepard is that there are virtually no resources detailing his LIFE. All biographical information I've found on him BEGINS with the date of his death, as if the guy didn't exist before that day.

Nowhere on the net, in books, in magazine articles does anyone mention what kinds of activities Matt was involved in during school, what subjects he found interesting, what he could normally be found doing on a typical Friday night. All information I've managed to gather about his personality and temperment has been pure hearsay and I can't find any reliable sources to confirm them. For instance, did you know that at the time of his death Matt was suicidally depressed? That he would often call his sister and she would have to talk him out of a suicide attempt? I've heard this from a few sources, but the "official story" of Matt and his death doesn't even mention let alone confirm this fact.

At this point I know all there is to know about Matt's death; I haven't the first clue about what went on during the 21 years he was alive. I guess that's part of the journey from person to icon. In Matt's case his elevation to sainthood requires the erasure of his human existence. To be a martyr he needs to have existed simply to die.

Not only is that terribly sad, it's also disrespectful. I don't know about anyone else, but I sure as hell don't want to be remembered for my death. His death CAN'T be what made him so wonderful. I want to find out what did.