At Least Heather Loves Me

Risaypaz: you are an incredibly beautiful person, you are kind (though you may not always know it), you are open-minded, and you care very much for your friends. I feel gifted that I have met and known here, and I have been thinking about leaving here--since that will happen, sadly and gladly, and there may be distances between us and there may already be some that have formed without our knowledge, but you are always going to be someone that is important to me. I think that you are beautiful. I know you are. You make me laugh. You make me question my beliefs. You challenge me. And I have learned so much through my friendship with you. You are a great writer as well. Sometimes I can become stupidly jealous at your ability with language and detail. You have been a mature writer since you entered Knox. And sometimes, I am amazed by you.

Too Trippy for my Thighs

I'm at work right now and writing because I don't feel like doing homework. Technically I should be writing journal entries for my Lit. and Ed. classes, but I'm just not in the mood. Wasn't in the mood last night either. It will all just have to wait till this evening. Screw the Neo-Futurists, I have a grade to obtain.

Last night was our first rehearsal. Mary just had us do preperatory movement excersises. They were fun but tiring. My thighs are hating me this morning, I'm not used to moving that much. We pretty much just danced around for an hour straight. We didn't even move that much in modern dance class or in Tristina's dance rehearsals. But there were some good moments. It was really great everytime I got to interact with another dancer. Randy and I did mirroring, and Wes and I kind of wrestled around on the floor.

Third order of business today (after working and eating) is to go over to counseling services and make an appointment to see someone. Tina was saying you don't have to talk to Dan, they have other counselers. So I'm gonna go investigate after lunch because this feeling of being defective is just too much for me to handle on my own. I need to talk to someone about it and have them help me get to the bottom of it.

In other news Adrienne wrote about me in her Livejournal. She says she enjoys our flirting and it makes her happy even though she is not sure where she wants it to lead. That's good. I like flirting with her too, it's an ego booster. And though I know I don't want anything sexual to happen now I think the idea of just having someone there that you could put the make on if you wanted to is sort of comforting. It makes you feel like you haven't lost your charm.