Hands Clean

Okay so it's like 5 AM and I am trying to finish my incompletes that are due in roughly 48 hours. Well.......that's not exactly true. I WAS working on my incompletes but now I am desperately trying to find a website to procrastinate on. Neopets seems to be down *sniffle* so I need an alternative. Since I have a short attention span I can alternate between playing on the computer and working on my projects. I can work for an hour then play for an hour, back and forth. But as is I've been playing for three hours so it's not working out exactly as planned.

But then again it never does. I can only be creative for maybe three hours at a stretch and I've already done 2 tonight. The poetry portfolio is almost complete and "If They Knew" is now fully revised. I just have to write my Cafagna paper and revise "Thieves Like Us." I have two days. I can do it, I can do it. Just gotta hang in there, be patient with myself.

I woke up at 9PM tonight, which sounds pretty awful but is actually really good. It means I can stay up all day and get to sleep at a normal hour tomorrow night. I repeat, tomorrow NIGHT! Not day, NIGHT!!!!! So with any luck I will be all nice and refreshed for work and class on Monday.

Take Me Home Tonight

I can't wait for school to be over. I am so tired of Knox and I'm tired of this town. I miss the city so bad. I miss going for walks and sleeping in my own bed. I miss eating REAL food, and having my oldest friends near by. If I could go home tomorrow and not have it impede my graduation date I would so do it. Well, I'm two months and three classes away from summer vactation and then I get to lay around and indulge in all the things I miss for three whole months.

And let's not forget that with June comes my BIRTHDAY!!! Yes ma'am this year of my life will be over and praise Goddess for that. 22 has SUCKED!!! Really, it was almost as bad as 19. Lets re-cap shall we? Okay first, over last summer I was stuck here in Galesburg working a tedious job, I developed a second cyst, got my first yeast infection, was physically and emotionally burnt out, had major fight with Mary and we stopped talking, then school starts, I winde up living with a bunch of obnoxious Tri Delts, Marc breaks up with me clear out of the blue, I discover that my workload is too heavy and I have to drop one of my classes, WTC comes down, I get severely depressed and have to start taking medication again, I start smoking again, Tina gets hurt, Michael moves out of the house, Kevin breaks up with me, I get severely sick, am misdiagnosed, and winde up having to take two incompletes in my classes because Im sick for two weeks, Lindsey stops talking to me....AND THE YEAR ISNT OVER YET!!!!!! What the hell else can fate throw at me?

I can't wait for 23. I hope it'll be good. I hope I can make it good somehow. I really don't want to stay for Senior Week anymore, I'm really anxious to get out of here. But Gemma keeps reminding me that there are people who I should see graduate. She has a great idea that we should give daisies to all our friends on graduation day :) I think that would be sweet.

And I have ONE day now to finish my incompletes. Have an entire paper to write. I'm scared but I'm gonna get it done, yes I am! It may suck but I'll be damned if I'm gonna ask for an extension. I just want this shit over and done with! You can do it Carla, you can do it. Just remember to breathe.

ciao