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One of the beliefs connected to the idea of synchronicity is that the presence of coincidence in our lives is a form of divine communication. It can come as the appearence of a specific person in your life at just the moment you need them, or in my case, the appearence of specific songs to convey a particular message.
I think someone was trying to tell me something the week Kev and I started to talk about reconciliation and the song "Whatever Whenever" by Shakira began floating through my head after I hadn't heard it for several months, Chorus....
Whatever, whenever
We're meant to be together
I'll be there and youll be near
And that's the deal my dear.
Thereover, hereunder,
You'll never have to wonder,
We can always play by ear,
But that's the deal my dear.
Not the most stunning lyrics ever, but they convey a message. They are short, they are peppy, they are optimistic.
I've had this song in my head for the last I don't know how long. Then at the beginning of the week it was replaced by another Shakira song, "Poem for a Horse." I should have seen that shift as prophetic, Chorus:
I'll leave again cause I've been waiting in vain
But you're so in love with yourself
If I say my heart is sore
Sounds like a cheap metaphor
So I won't repeat it no more.
Very different message being conveyed there.
Um, yeah, this whole Kevin thing isn't gonna work. He is currently ignoring me on IM. And basically, last night turned into the same deal as the night we broke up. He told me he didn't care about anything in life which includes me and that he didn't care whether I stayed or left. Why the hell would I want to be with someone who honestly doesn't care about me and has expressed it on two separate occasions? Moreover supposing he does care about me, he gets so apathetic and numb so often, and then picks fights for no reason. I don't think I should have to bear the brunt of his explosions. It's not fair to me. So as soon as the baby decides to IM me I'm gonna let him know that our reconciliation is officially cancelled. I don't think he will care much.
Yeah something clicked in my head last night when within the span of 15 minutes a past roommate (Mary) my current roommate (Tina) and my future roommate(Gemma) all told me that Kevin was a shit and I deserved better. I always say you should listen to your roommate's advice because your roommate knows you better then probably anyone else. They live in close quarters with you and know all of your habits and moods. They see you in a light that no one else can and therefore they have an insight into your psyche that most other friends prolly don't. So when they start telling you you are fucking up, then you know you REALLY ARE fucking up and should work to repair the situation as best you can.
Yes these are all signs. The crowning glory popped up in the computer lab today when I ran into Clark. Clark and I have been having all these weird parallels in our lives recently. He met Jackie the same time I met Kevin, we both met them through the same means, we both gained a new sexual partner through them so we are still tied on that front. They started having problems when Kev and I started having problems, we were both having similar problems. It was all just very freaky but freaky in a good way. It's just my wacky psychic pagan connection with Clark in full effect. Anyway, I saw him in the lab today and he told me that he and Jackie broke up this week. When I asked why he listed all the same reasons I was thinking of ending it with Kevin for. It just made me realize that wanting to end this really was a good idea.
I told Clark about Kev and the first words out of his mouth were, "Petey stopped smoking." What a devious little matchmaker he is. Still trying to hook Petey and I up even though I barely know the guy and I never see him. I'm flattered to know that Clark actually cares enough to want me to be happy. Petey and I aren't going to happen, no matter how hard Clark tries. But I'm glad especially with all the shit he has going on in his life, that he is trying. :)
I think someone was trying to tell me something the week Kev and I started to talk about reconciliation and the song "Whatever Whenever" by Shakira began floating through my head after I hadn't heard it for several months, Chorus....
Whatever, whenever
We're meant to be together
I'll be there and youll be near
And that's the deal my dear.
Thereover, hereunder,
You'll never have to wonder,
We can always play by ear,
But that's the deal my dear.
Not the most stunning lyrics ever, but they convey a message. They are short, they are peppy, they are optimistic.
I've had this song in my head for the last I don't know how long. Then at the beginning of the week it was replaced by another Shakira song, "Poem for a Horse." I should have seen that shift as prophetic, Chorus:
I'll leave again cause I've been waiting in vain
But you're so in love with yourself
If I say my heart is sore
Sounds like a cheap metaphor
So I won't repeat it no more.
Very different message being conveyed there.
Um, yeah, this whole Kevin thing isn't gonna work. He is currently ignoring me on IM. And basically, last night turned into the same deal as the night we broke up. He told me he didn't care about anything in life which includes me and that he didn't care whether I stayed or left. Why the hell would I want to be with someone who honestly doesn't care about me and has expressed it on two separate occasions? Moreover supposing he does care about me, he gets so apathetic and numb so often, and then picks fights for no reason. I don't think I should have to bear the brunt of his explosions. It's not fair to me. So as soon as the baby decides to IM me I'm gonna let him know that our reconciliation is officially cancelled. I don't think he will care much.
Yeah something clicked in my head last night when within the span of 15 minutes a past roommate (Mary) my current roommate (Tina) and my future roommate(Gemma) all told me that Kevin was a shit and I deserved better. I always say you should listen to your roommate's advice because your roommate knows you better then probably anyone else. They live in close quarters with you and know all of your habits and moods. They see you in a light that no one else can and therefore they have an insight into your psyche that most other friends prolly don't. So when they start telling you you are fucking up, then you know you REALLY ARE fucking up and should work to repair the situation as best you can.
Yes these are all signs. The crowning glory popped up in the computer lab today when I ran into Clark. Clark and I have been having all these weird parallels in our lives recently. He met Jackie the same time I met Kevin, we both met them through the same means, we both gained a new sexual partner through them so we are still tied on that front. They started having problems when Kev and I started having problems, we were both having similar problems. It was all just very freaky but freaky in a good way. It's just my wacky psychic pagan connection with Clark in full effect. Anyway, I saw him in the lab today and he told me that he and Jackie broke up this week. When I asked why he listed all the same reasons I was thinking of ending it with Kevin for. It just made me realize that wanting to end this really was a good idea.
I told Clark about Kev and the first words out of his mouth were, "Petey stopped smoking." What a devious little matchmaker he is. Still trying to hook Petey and I up even though I barely know the guy and I never see him. I'm flattered to know that Clark actually cares enough to want me to be happy. Petey and I aren't going to happen, no matter how hard Clark tries. But I'm glad especially with all the shit he has going on in his life, that he is trying. :)
