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Random Realization:

I obsess over people. Romantically. Celebrities (like Mr. Levine down there), and people in my life (like the lovely noog ) who I dream of and admire from afar.

I do this because loving from afar is safer than loving in reality. From afar I can give a peson all my heart without the threat of having my love rejected, or of being criticized in anyway. My devotion is totally appreciated if for no other reason than i have no evidence that it is not.

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[noog.livejournal.com]

Hey... I know how that goes. I tend to admire people from afar as well. Or, at least, I'm afraid of talking to them-- even when I have before and I know them-- because I'm really good at convincing myself that I'm just a socially awkward nerd, and the other person is really cool, and there's no way in hell that they really want to talk to me.

Hell, the girl I'm dating right now-- I know she likes me, and I know I like her, and yet it's still hard to talk to her sometimes because I look at her and think, "Here's someone who's hot, and intelligent, and funny, and she has her life together and has everything possible going for her, and why in the hell would she date someone like me?" It's hard to relax sometimes. I don't like that.