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morrigirlit looks like Kevin and i will probably break up tonight. Im going to call him after i get off work. i can tell this is going to be the break up conversation.
After writing last nights entry i IMed himm and expressed my feelings to him stateing that i was depressed and not thinking logically. he knew when he got involved with me that i would get depressd some times and need a little help getting out. I made sure to warn him. And he said he could deal because he goes through the same things.
But today he told me that last night really flipped him out. he felt like i was questioning his love, and he didnt like that. he also feltlike it was not his duty to play father to me and tell me everything is okay (even though i do that for him on a daily basis.) He said the distance was bothing him and he felt we were too different o be dating and blah blah blah. i swear i have heard it allbefore. it was all of the same lame ass excuses Marc gave when he broke up with me because he was too chicken shit to admit that he didnt want to put the effort into being in this relationship. he didnt want to admit that he was holding a double standard which stated that i should have to deal with all of his shit and he shouldnt have to deal with any of mine.
Kevin says he doesnt want to break up just ease off although he wont say what the difference is. that might be cuase there is none.
o well i think we can safely say that i will be single by the next time i write so if there are any cute boys out there...hey Im availible.
After writing last nights entry i IMed himm and expressed my feelings to him stateing that i was depressed and not thinking logically. he knew when he got involved with me that i would get depressd some times and need a little help getting out. I made sure to warn him. And he said he could deal because he goes through the same things.
But today he told me that last night really flipped him out. he felt like i was questioning his love, and he didnt like that. he also feltlike it was not his duty to play father to me and tell me everything is okay (even though i do that for him on a daily basis.) He said the distance was bothing him and he felt we were too different o be dating and blah blah blah. i swear i have heard it allbefore. it was all of the same lame ass excuses Marc gave when he broke up with me because he was too chicken shit to admit that he didnt want to put the effort into being in this relationship. he didnt want to admit that he was holding a double standard which stated that i should have to deal with all of his shit and he shouldnt have to deal with any of mine.
Kevin says he doesnt want to break up just ease off although he wont say what the difference is. that might be cuase there is none.
o well i think we can safely say that i will be single by the next time i write so if there are any cute boys out there...hey Im availible.
