Fumbling Towards Ecstasy - SCN
Jul. 15th, 2003 04:56 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigirlI'm back in the lonely night again. Feeling pretty antsy. Need something to do with my hands, brain, energy. So here I am clicking away on my keyboard.
Just sent Mike some more fax numbers. He's being sweet and faxing my resume out for me since I can't do it myself. Today I'm cruising receptionist positions. That's a job I am fully qualified for. I can answer phones like nobody's business!!! And I make a fine hostess!!! I mean, that's all working in the library was: picking up the phone and greeting patrons.
And I heard from Teiwaz today for the first time in a week. Actually I heard from his friend "Garrett" who emailed me from Teiwaz's Hotmail account. I'm not sure of all the details but bottom line is he's hospitalized. Apparently he became "a danger to himself and others." Not really surprising since his schizophrenia was raring up big time.
There was this whole long explanation involving a grey car and being followed that I'm not sure I totally believe. But I kinda have to give him the benefit of the doubt. On the night he came clean about Stesha and Allie I swore that I would believe anything he told me hence forth as long as he swore never to lie to me. And while the story seems a bit far fetched, I have to admit, he has been consistent about keeping me updated recently. He has lived up to his word, not letting a week go by without emailng me once to let me know he's okay. And he said if something "happened" to him he'd tell me or get someone else to relay the message.
So *shrugs* just gotta believe at the moment. Got no other choice.
Just sent Mike some more fax numbers. He's being sweet and faxing my resume out for me since I can't do it myself. Today I'm cruising receptionist positions. That's a job I am fully qualified for. I can answer phones like nobody's business!!! And I make a fine hostess!!! I mean, that's all working in the library was: picking up the phone and greeting patrons.
And I heard from Teiwaz today for the first time in a week. Actually I heard from his friend "Garrett" who emailed me from Teiwaz's Hotmail account. I'm not sure of all the details but bottom line is he's hospitalized. Apparently he became "a danger to himself and others." Not really surprising since his schizophrenia was raring up big time.
There was this whole long explanation involving a grey car and being followed that I'm not sure I totally believe. But I kinda have to give him the benefit of the doubt. On the night he came clean about Stesha and Allie I swore that I would believe anything he told me hence forth as long as he swore never to lie to me. And while the story seems a bit far fetched, I have to admit, he has been consistent about keeping me updated recently. He has lived up to his word, not letting a week go by without emailng me once to let me know he's okay. And he said if something "happened" to him he'd tell me or get someone else to relay the message.
So *shrugs* just gotta believe at the moment. Got no other choice.
