No More Tina
Sep. 8th, 2002 09:04 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigirlEmail received from Tina ths morning.
Hi Chica!
Sorry the last week was so stressful for you. It's been kind of
frustrating on this end, unpacking from Chautauqua and then hanging my work
up around CFA it was busy. Plus the new job. BUt to get to my point I
tried to call tonite but you were sleeping. I wanted to talk about
something I have been debating since the spring. I talked alot about it
with john haslem, lynette, and deaN Bailey. What i was debating was
moving my sorry ass to a single. Somewheres. Its not so easy to explain
why but I'll give it a shot. Last week Craig Southern found me one in
Williston. Well, thing is last term was pretty hard, and you werent
feeling good and I was pretty overwhelmed and swamped. What bugged me
the whole time was how i felt when i got home, i felt like i didnt want
to be there. But I just basically spent all my time in the studio as
u noticed. Anyway, what I know is that your one of my favorite people
and I love being around you, but not when it feels bad. I got
frustrated alot last year. It really got me upset and I knew you were feeling
bad so I did not want to go hey you know what i hate coming home. Maybe
it is because you felt so bad and I didnt know what to do. But this
summer i thought alot, and I changed some too, i have been feeling alot
better about myself alot more confident and motivated. what I am
honestly worried about is that if I am around you and you are still not
feeling happy, I might get upset because Ill feel bad that I cant make you
happier. Then I will get depressed and get you more depressed or spend
all my time in the studio afraid to come home. I want to be able to
hang out with you and enjoy it. Truth is last year i didnt. And it was
not because you were bad company, or anything it was because how sad you
were. I dont know what really to say, I bet you will be mad but I
probably would be too, but i think it is for the best, I know that I really
need to focus this year, and I think you do too. Lynette and JOhn
Haslem are well the major force in this not that I am not the one making
the decision but they both feel it is the best thing for me. ANd maybe
that is selfish. I really want to get through this year, with out
cutting without feeling bad. I just want to have fun hanging out with you
again, and last year i didnt feel that and I didnt like it at all. But
I am pretty sure Im going to move. I feel bad but I also feel good.
You know what I am going to stop rambling maybe you will think of the
questions I cant think of, and help me figure this out. MOst of all I
really need you to help me here and understand. Ill try calling yo
utomorrow night. Talk to you later. Take Care
Luv
Tina
Hi Chica!
Sorry the last week was so stressful for you. It's been kind of
frustrating on this end, unpacking from Chautauqua and then hanging my work
up around CFA it was busy. Plus the new job. BUt to get to my point I
tried to call tonite but you were sleeping. I wanted to talk about
something I have been debating since the spring. I talked alot about it
with john haslem, lynette, and deaN Bailey. What i was debating was
moving my sorry ass to a single. Somewheres. Its not so easy to explain
why but I'll give it a shot. Last week Craig Southern found me one in
Williston. Well, thing is last term was pretty hard, and you werent
feeling good and I was pretty overwhelmed and swamped. What bugged me
the whole time was how i felt when i got home, i felt like i didnt want
to be there. But I just basically spent all my time in the studio as
u noticed. Anyway, what I know is that your one of my favorite people
and I love being around you, but not when it feels bad. I got
frustrated alot last year. It really got me upset and I knew you were feeling
bad so I did not want to go hey you know what i hate coming home. Maybe
it is because you felt so bad and I didnt know what to do. But this
summer i thought alot, and I changed some too, i have been feeling alot
better about myself alot more confident and motivated. what I am
honestly worried about is that if I am around you and you are still not
feeling happy, I might get upset because Ill feel bad that I cant make you
happier. Then I will get depressed and get you more depressed or spend
all my time in the studio afraid to come home. I want to be able to
hang out with you and enjoy it. Truth is last year i didnt. And it was
not because you were bad company, or anything it was because how sad you
were. I dont know what really to say, I bet you will be mad but I
probably would be too, but i think it is for the best, I know that I really
need to focus this year, and I think you do too. Lynette and JOhn
Haslem are well the major force in this not that I am not the one making
the decision but they both feel it is the best thing for me. ANd maybe
that is selfish. I really want to get through this year, with out
cutting without feeling bad. I just want to have fun hanging out with you
again, and last year i didnt feel that and I didnt like it at all. But
I am pretty sure Im going to move. I feel bad but I also feel good.
You know what I am going to stop rambling maybe you will think of the
questions I cant think of, and help me figure this out. MOst of all I
really need you to help me here and understand. Ill try calling yo
utomorrow night. Talk to you later. Take Care
Luv
Tina
