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morrigirlAnother lonely day. Slept till three or four in the afternoon. Woke up to find two messages on the machine, one from Elisabeth, one from Kirk, both asking if I wanted to hang out. Kirk even asked if I was still talking to him. He must know I've been feeling uncomfortable these last couple days. Anyway I called him and told him I didn't feel up to chilling with him. Didn't even bother to call Liz back. Some friend I am. Spent the remainder of the evening dealing with cramps and exhaustion due to the onslaught of my period. Luckily it isn't as bad as it was last month when my depression was only exacerbating the pain.
I think we need to raise the dosage of my Zoloft. It's not working anymore. I feel bad about myself all the time. It's not even making me feel numb like the Paxil did. It's doing nothing.
Today was a big moving day for all my friends. Gemma moved into our apartment and Gayle moved into hers. Spoke to Gemma on IM for a few hours last night, that was fun. She made me smile. Gayle on the other hand seems to almost be avoiding me. She's barely said anything to me the last few times I've caught her on IM, and she doesn't email any more. I know she is busy and all, and I haven't been the most wonderful pen pal this summer, but I feel like she just doesn't want to talk to me :( But then again I seem to feel that way about everyone so I'm not sure how much of that is real or simply my low self-esteem monkeying around.
I miss Tina.
I wish Tina were here.
I think we need to raise the dosage of my Zoloft. It's not working anymore. I feel bad about myself all the time. It's not even making me feel numb like the Paxil did. It's doing nothing.
Today was a big moving day for all my friends. Gemma moved into our apartment and Gayle moved into hers. Spoke to Gemma on IM for a few hours last night, that was fun. She made me smile. Gayle on the other hand seems to almost be avoiding me. She's barely said anything to me the last few times I've caught her on IM, and she doesn't email any more. I know she is busy and all, and I haven't been the most wonderful pen pal this summer, but I feel like she just doesn't want to talk to me :( But then again I seem to feel that way about everyone so I'm not sure how much of that is real or simply my low self-esteem monkeying around.
I miss Tina.
I wish Tina were here.
