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morrigirlI've been wanting to write all day long but two things have stopped me from doing so.
1) I called Derek today. Left messages at his house AND at Elizabeth's. I was trying to stay off the computer so I could keep the phone line free in case he called. He didn't.
2) When I was online today I was all addicted to that new game, Rise to Power. That thing is CUT THROAT! You have to play 24/7 if you don't want any of your countries to be invaded. I played for like 2 hours today. I feel like a bum. But a contented bum.
One way or the other it's been a pretty good day all things considered. Even though it was 110 degrees today I managed to walk down to Barnes and Noble to look for new self-help books. In particular, I was on the lookout for books recommended by Mary Ellen Copeland. Low and behold I found one of the high priority titles, Self-Esteem by Matthew McKay and Patrick Fleming, in the discount section and bought it hard cover for 8 bucks. Pretty sweet huh?
I've started reading it and it's really good. It uses cognitive therapy techniques to improve self-esteem. It contains a lot of the same excersises that Dan Larson asked me to try back in September. I wasn't ready to seriously try them back then, but I am now. So I'm keeping track of all the negative thoughts I've been having about myself today. It's a way of subverting my inner critic. It''s not what I'd call fun, but if this is what I have to do to start feeling better about myself so be it.
Anyway, after I got back from the bookstore I picked up the mail and discovered two checks adressed to me. One was my last paycheck from Knox, the other was an Illinois tax refund check. Now I have an extra 100 dollars to my name. Which is good cause I was down to my last 4.
Kirk is coming over tomorrow and I need to think of something for us to DO! Any suggestions? I'm baffled.
And I talked to Karisha and Elisabeth tonight online, and we made plans to have dinner on Wednesday.
Yes it has been a good day I say.
It's a nice change of pace.
1) I called Derek today. Left messages at his house AND at Elizabeth's. I was trying to stay off the computer so I could keep the phone line free in case he called. He didn't.
2) When I was online today I was all addicted to that new game, Rise to Power. That thing is CUT THROAT! You have to play 24/7 if you don't want any of your countries to be invaded. I played for like 2 hours today. I feel like a bum. But a contented bum.
One way or the other it's been a pretty good day all things considered. Even though it was 110 degrees today I managed to walk down to Barnes and Noble to look for new self-help books. In particular, I was on the lookout for books recommended by Mary Ellen Copeland. Low and behold I found one of the high priority titles, Self-Esteem by Matthew McKay and Patrick Fleming, in the discount section and bought it hard cover for 8 bucks. Pretty sweet huh?
I've started reading it and it's really good. It uses cognitive therapy techniques to improve self-esteem. It contains a lot of the same excersises that Dan Larson asked me to try back in September. I wasn't ready to seriously try them back then, but I am now. So I'm keeping track of all the negative thoughts I've been having about myself today. It's a way of subverting my inner critic. It''s not what I'd call fun, but if this is what I have to do to start feeling better about myself so be it.
Anyway, after I got back from the bookstore I picked up the mail and discovered two checks adressed to me. One was my last paycheck from Knox, the other was an Illinois tax refund check. Now I have an extra 100 dollars to my name. Which is good cause I was down to my last 4.
Kirk is coming over tomorrow and I need to think of something for us to DO! Any suggestions? I'm baffled.
And I talked to Karisha and Elisabeth tonight online, and we made plans to have dinner on Wednesday.
Yes it has been a good day I say.
It's a nice change of pace.
