Crippled Inside
Jul. 6th, 2002 09:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigirlI spent most of the day laying on my bed crunched in half and groaning my head off. My month late period finally showed up today and my hormones are so fucked up I don't think the blood even knows whch way is down! My stomach has been killing me all day. I can't eat anything because that just makes the pain worse. Mike and I had to cancel the Spider Man outting because I couldn't even get out of bed for most of the day.
It has been centuries since I've had cramps this bad. I think its because of all my emotional shit. We all know my body reacts strongly to emotional upheavals. I get sick, I get moody, I get tired. I wish I could find a way to balance my life out, get my body and heart straightened out.
I started feeling better in the late afternoon, so I went out for a walk. Went to Urban Outfitters and bought myself a new pair of socks.
Okay so I've been thinking about stuff. I don't think I wanna go to grad school right away. I really just want to pick up and move someplace. I need time and space of my own. But I've written about all this before. It's just becoming more and more cemented in my mind. Now it's just a matter of finding employment somewhere. Or maybe not even that. More like a matter of deciding where I want to go. If I can find a job someplace I'll move to wherever the job is. But if I don't, I can just go wherever I want and find a place to live. I like the idea of Montpelior, Arizona, Chicago. Maybe I could talk T into getting an apartment with me. Or someone else. Elisabeth seems a little too nervous about the finances involved in getting an apartment so I don't think I'll be able to talk her into anything. Even though we could get a 2 bedroom apartment in Norwood for only 1000 a month. Thats only 500 dollars a piece, an absolute STEAL in this city!
I took the famed Spot test. Here is this go round's results,
Baltimore
Long Beach CA
New Haven, CN
San Diego
Providence, RI
Boston,MA
Orange County, CA
Oakland
Honolulu (?!)
Little Rock AK
Las Vegas
Chicago
Los Angeles
Sacramento
Hartford, CN
Annapolis, MD
Milwaukee
New Orleans
San Jose CA
San Francisco
Gaithersburg, MD
Washington DC
Frederick MD
Portland.
Well California is totally out of the question. But the east coast areas like Maryland, and Rhode Island interest me.
But well its something to think about. Anyone want to move in with me in roughly......eleven months?
It has been centuries since I've had cramps this bad. I think its because of all my emotional shit. We all know my body reacts strongly to emotional upheavals. I get sick, I get moody, I get tired. I wish I could find a way to balance my life out, get my body and heart straightened out.
I started feeling better in the late afternoon, so I went out for a walk. Went to Urban Outfitters and bought myself a new pair of socks.
Okay so I've been thinking about stuff. I don't think I wanna go to grad school right away. I really just want to pick up and move someplace. I need time and space of my own. But I've written about all this before. It's just becoming more and more cemented in my mind. Now it's just a matter of finding employment somewhere. Or maybe not even that. More like a matter of deciding where I want to go. If I can find a job someplace I'll move to wherever the job is. But if I don't, I can just go wherever I want and find a place to live. I like the idea of Montpelior, Arizona, Chicago. Maybe I could talk T into getting an apartment with me. Or someone else. Elisabeth seems a little too nervous about the finances involved in getting an apartment so I don't think I'll be able to talk her into anything. Even though we could get a 2 bedroom apartment in Norwood for only 1000 a month. Thats only 500 dollars a piece, an absolute STEAL in this city!
I took the famed Spot test. Here is this go round's results,
Baltimore
Long Beach CA
New Haven, CN
San Diego
Providence, RI
Boston,MA
Orange County, CA
Oakland
Honolulu (?!)
Little Rock AK
Las Vegas
Chicago
Los Angeles
Sacramento
Hartford, CN
Annapolis, MD
Milwaukee
New Orleans
San Jose CA
San Francisco
Gaithersburg, MD
Washington DC
Frederick MD
Portland.
Well California is totally out of the question. But the east coast areas like Maryland, and Rhode Island interest me.
But well its something to think about. Anyone want to move in with me in roughly......eleven months?
