HELP

[morrigirl]

I want someone to talk to but there is no one.

I can't talk to any of my friends because they don't understand why I feel like this. I can't talk to Kevin anymore because he thinks I'm psycho. I can't talk to a shrink because they will make me do stuff I don't want to do.

Nobody around here understands this.

I am sitting here literally tearing my hair out because I don't know what else to do. My favorite depression chat site is down for repair so I can't go talk with anonymous strangers on the web about it. I keep posting messages on all the message boards that I'm part of and no one has any idea what to tell me other than hang in there.

I am fucking hanging in there. I've been hanging in there since September! Iv'e been doing everything I can think of to KEEP myself hanging in there. I don't want to just hang in there anymore I want my fucking life back! Nobody can tell me how to get back to where I was.....I don't even know. Maybe I never was stable. Maybe I just made that up.

There are only so many things you can say to a depressed person and I'm quite certain I've heard them all. I used to believe them. I don't anymore.

"You have so much to live for."
"There are lots of people who care about you ."
"Suicide won't stop the pain."
"You are a wonderful person."

I say PROVE IT!


OOOOOOOOO Elisabeth just came online. I'm gonna go talk to her.