Windows and Doors
Mar. 5th, 2002 05:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigirlAnd the plot thickens...
Gemma told me today that last night Dave Urlakis broke up with his girlfriend (one of Gemma's frat sisters,) and went running dick first into the arms of Tristina Gelinas. Hmmmm. Well Gemma says she will never forgive Tris for all the shit that has gone down this weekend, never wants to talk to her again.
So then I run into Tris this afternoon. She gives me a run down of the weekends events. She and Dave are now casually seeing each other. She and Nathan are taking a break she says because he was starting to smother her. Again I say hmmm.
The hmmm comes from the knowledge that Tris and Nathan were as happy as pigs and shit together until this weekend when Tris fooled around with everyone and their brother. I knew Tris had changed, but now I think she is acting way more immature than she even realizes.
I mean, I thought she was being stupid when she went out with Aaron, I thought she was cruel when she stole Jon from Heather, but I was willing to cut her some slack because she's my friend. And because she seems to be one of those people who just feels real bad a bout herself as a person and needs to be in a relationship or at the very least sexually desired by someone in order to feel like a worthy human being. I know the feeling and I have done the sleeping around that goes with it. However after a year or so I recognized my behavior for the defense mechanism that it was and actually started dealing with the issues that lead me to believe I was only worth something if I was sleeping with someone.
I don't see Tris moving towards any kind of self realization here and it bothers me. I just see her acting irresponsibly and with no regard for the feelings of others. She keeps saying she wants a healthy relationship. As far as I could see she had one with Nathan. He was talking about marriage and despite that she now says it was bothering her fact of the matter was she was pretty damn jazzed about the idea not two weeks ago. She trashed Nathan this weekend when other men started to show their interest in her. Nathan was there to save her from her feelings of worthlessness after Jon broke up with her. He was the only person who desired her at that time. Now that others are showing their desire, she can afford to throw Nathan out. That's just mean.
I totally understand this need of hers to be loved. What I don't like is her running around saying she wants a relationship. SHE SO DOESNT. She wants to sleep around! I wish she would face up to that fact and act accordingly. People who just want to sleep around are doing their partners a favor by owning up to it, it enables the partners not to get too emotionally involved. Tris is not doing this! She treats every guy like the love of her life until the next one comes along. She has no intention of staying with any of them. She should TELL them and herself this!
God damn it pisses me off! In my book saying one thing and doing another is morally irresponsible. She has no right to hurt people and string them along the way she does. I'm almost happy that housing lottery is approaching so I can say all of this to her face when we tell her why we don't want her to live with us next year.
In other news, "If They Knew" got workshopped in big group today and it went over much better. Most of the class did understand what I was trying to do with the story and gave me some really helpful suggestions on how to improve it. It's all just minor tweaking stuff too so that's good. Robin and Jacob Beard were both able to key in to the subler tones of the story, like the fact that it's really Cullen who is making all the decisions and that Cecille is just following because she wants to be with him so bad. And that Cecille gossips in order to deflect attention from her own life and her own problems. Their comments were very helpful.
And I've come to the conclusion there is no way I am going to be able to do 80 pages in 10 days especially with everything due a week from today no way. So tonight and tomorrow I'm going to decide what to take incompletes in. As much as I hate to do it, it needs to be done.
And speaking of needs to be done, I need to go read some Marcus Cafagna.
Ciao
Gemma told me today that last night Dave Urlakis broke up with his girlfriend (one of Gemma's frat sisters,) and went running dick first into the arms of Tristina Gelinas. Hmmmm. Well Gemma says she will never forgive Tris for all the shit that has gone down this weekend, never wants to talk to her again.
So then I run into Tris this afternoon. She gives me a run down of the weekends events. She and Dave are now casually seeing each other. She and Nathan are taking a break she says because he was starting to smother her. Again I say hmmm.
The hmmm comes from the knowledge that Tris and Nathan were as happy as pigs and shit together until this weekend when Tris fooled around with everyone and their brother. I knew Tris had changed, but now I think she is acting way more immature than she even realizes.
I mean, I thought she was being stupid when she went out with Aaron, I thought she was cruel when she stole Jon from Heather, but I was willing to cut her some slack because she's my friend. And because she seems to be one of those people who just feels real bad a bout herself as a person and needs to be in a relationship or at the very least sexually desired by someone in order to feel like a worthy human being. I know the feeling and I have done the sleeping around that goes with it. However after a year or so I recognized my behavior for the defense mechanism that it was and actually started dealing with the issues that lead me to believe I was only worth something if I was sleeping with someone.
I don't see Tris moving towards any kind of self realization here and it bothers me. I just see her acting irresponsibly and with no regard for the feelings of others. She keeps saying she wants a healthy relationship. As far as I could see she had one with Nathan. He was talking about marriage and despite that she now says it was bothering her fact of the matter was she was pretty damn jazzed about the idea not two weeks ago. She trashed Nathan this weekend when other men started to show their interest in her. Nathan was there to save her from her feelings of worthlessness after Jon broke up with her. He was the only person who desired her at that time. Now that others are showing their desire, she can afford to throw Nathan out. That's just mean.
I totally understand this need of hers to be loved. What I don't like is her running around saying she wants a relationship. SHE SO DOESNT. She wants to sleep around! I wish she would face up to that fact and act accordingly. People who just want to sleep around are doing their partners a favor by owning up to it, it enables the partners not to get too emotionally involved. Tris is not doing this! She treats every guy like the love of her life until the next one comes along. She has no intention of staying with any of them. She should TELL them and herself this!
God damn it pisses me off! In my book saying one thing and doing another is morally irresponsible. She has no right to hurt people and string them along the way she does. I'm almost happy that housing lottery is approaching so I can say all of this to her face when we tell her why we don't want her to live with us next year.
In other news, "If They Knew" got workshopped in big group today and it went over much better. Most of the class did understand what I was trying to do with the story and gave me some really helpful suggestions on how to improve it. It's all just minor tweaking stuff too so that's good. Robin and Jacob Beard were both able to key in to the subler tones of the story, like the fact that it's really Cullen who is making all the decisions and that Cecille is just following because she wants to be with him so bad. And that Cecille gossips in order to deflect attention from her own life and her own problems. Their comments were very helpful.
And I've come to the conclusion there is no way I am going to be able to do 80 pages in 10 days especially with everything due a week from today no way. So tonight and tomorrow I'm going to decide what to take incompletes in. As much as I hate to do it, it needs to be done.
And speaking of needs to be done, I need to go read some Marcus Cafagna.
Ciao
