Ramblings of an Ear Infection
Feb. 22nd, 2002 01:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigirlJust got back from the doctor. I was feeling so bad this morning I finally had to give in and go. And whats the diagnosis? I have strep throat and an ear infection. I never would have guessed because neither my ears nor my throat hurt at all. But that's one of my weird things. The part of me that is infected is rarely the part that hurts. Like the last time I had an ear infection I didn't know I had it until I went to the doctor because of my sinuses!
So now I'm at home thinking lot's of things and resting my sweet little body. I have so much I want to write about. First off, I hate the bell tower. I HATE IT!!! They should never have repaired it! Now it lets out this irritating gong ever hour on the hour. It is so annoying! Oh there it goes now! Motherfucker!
Another thing is I don't know how to deal with this whole Kevin thing anymore. Really I am at my wits end. Now my mom is pissed because I'm talking to him, Gemma hates me for considering him, Linds thinks I'm a moron! I can't take this! I've never had so many people I care about so vehemently dislike my choice of men.
And this is a real problem because my friends are one of the two most important things in my life (# 1 being my writing.) I don't want them to hate me. I am so almost tempted just to say fuck it! A boy isn't worth it! I was this close to actually saying that to Kev this morning.
But then I remember how great he has been these last couple of days that I have been sick. He's been so sweet, Iming me and trying to make me laugh and smile. And he has been doing much better about listening to me when I'm feeling down. He is working at the things that are wrong which is more than any other guy has ever done for me. He is actually trying to change himself because he thinks I'm worth it. He thinks I deserve a guy who can be there for me emotionally and I think he wants to be that guy.
Today I will say fuck you to all the people who are getting on my case about this. I'm gonna let Kev and I inhabit our own little world. No one else has to understand it. I feel good in it. That's all that matters.
So now I'm at home thinking lot's of things and resting my sweet little body. I have so much I want to write about. First off, I hate the bell tower. I HATE IT!!! They should never have repaired it! Now it lets out this irritating gong ever hour on the hour. It is so annoying! Oh there it goes now! Motherfucker!
Another thing is I don't know how to deal with this whole Kevin thing anymore. Really I am at my wits end. Now my mom is pissed because I'm talking to him, Gemma hates me for considering him, Linds thinks I'm a moron! I can't take this! I've never had so many people I care about so vehemently dislike my choice of men.
And this is a real problem because my friends are one of the two most important things in my life (# 1 being my writing.) I don't want them to hate me. I am so almost tempted just to say fuck it! A boy isn't worth it! I was this close to actually saying that to Kev this morning.
But then I remember how great he has been these last couple of days that I have been sick. He's been so sweet, Iming me and trying to make me laugh and smile. And he has been doing much better about listening to me when I'm feeling down. He is working at the things that are wrong which is more than any other guy has ever done for me. He is actually trying to change himself because he thinks I'm worth it. He thinks I deserve a guy who can be there for me emotionally and I think he wants to be that guy.
Today I will say fuck you to all the people who are getting on my case about this. I'm gonna let Kev and I inhabit our own little world. No one else has to understand it. I feel good in it. That's all that matters.
