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A Very Saylor Valentine
Feb. 14th, 2003 04:37 pmOkay, so, I'm an idiot.
I was stupid enough to sleep through acting class today and in doing so missed receiving the singing valentine Tina sent me :( That made me sad. I look forward to my singing valentine's every year and on my last one at Knox i miss it. I suck :-p
Was a challenge to make it through two classes today. I kept getting headaches and just wanting to get up and leave. But i survived and my teachers know I'm not dead.
Ate lunch with Aaron Saylor this afternoon. That was very pleasant. He asked if I was doing any better, which kinda surprised me cause I dunno who told him I was sick. While we were eating Krista came over and inquired about my health, and in the process I realized something peculiar: I've never really considered myself one of the "theater people" at this school, but lately I've felt much more embraced by the theater department than by the English department.
I mean Aaron was telling me that the rumor in the theater department was that I had mono disguised as somethig else, and thats why I'd been gone from classes and rehearsal and what not. The fact that the theater profs and students knew more about what was keeing me out of class, or at least had a more concrete if no necessarily accurate idea about it than any of my English profs kinda says something.
I've always been at the outskirts of the writing community around here. I'm not a catch person, not a bladu person, not a TKS person, not a weekly forum person. Without involvement in these organizations you can never really be respected as a writer at this school. Thats a fact.
But when it comes to theater, all you need to do is appear in a production or two and they totally embrace you. No shit. If you get cast in more than one show, if people see you on stage multiple times and they LIKE what they see, than you can build a name for yourself as a respected performer. I'm not saying I'm a celebrity or anything, but at present I've worked with most members of the theater faculty and student body pretty closely at one point or another, I've built a reputation of being easy to work with, and plain and simple, people in CFA know who I am. Participating and becoming known in your field is what gets you respect.
And in the theater department there are more paths through which to become "known." One can become known as a performer like Mary Morales, as a dancer like Katy Biver, as a lighting designer like Aaron, as a set constructor like Agnes, a costume designer like Katy Conover, or a stage manager like Krista. In the writing community you can only become known through writing. And if the department does not value you as a writer than any editorial or even copy editing positions are closed to you.
So, yeah, it' strange. Seems like the people giving me hugs in the hallways these days, the ones sitting next to me in class, and eating meals with me, are theater people, and...I just don't really know how that happened I guess. There something really good about it, knowing that there is a field of study that I'm learning how to excel at, and a group of students who are willing to reward me for my efforts. But it feels weird since it's not in the field that I've devoted the most time, energy, and passion to. It's not the one I LONG to be respected within.
But...anyway...
Aaron walked me home after Am Lit. And we talked about Rob, and Walt Whitman, and the silly Christian girl in our class who refuses to acknowledge the sexual imagery in Leaves of Grass. Seems as though I've spent a large chunk of my waking time with Aaron today, hence the title of this entry.
And I guess I had to get to it sooner or later: Valentine's Day. Yeah, no plans for me. Gemma and Jon are going out to dinner and a movie. Personally i wouldn't mind just sleeping all night since I only got three hours last night. But if I'm feeling adventurous i may drg myself to see the Calvin Problem in studio theater. I know Cori is going tonight so I may run into her.
*shrugs* Valentine's Day is less of a deal this year then it has been in a while. Usually I hold an anti-valentines get together at the very least. But not this year. Have no tolerance for petty romantic dilemmas this year. Too much has happened. We're gonna pretend it isn't happening this year. Yup. Not gonna go looking for the couples for the sole purpose of glaring at them. Nope I'm gonna stay in, watch tv, and not think about Kirk.
I was stupid enough to sleep through acting class today and in doing so missed receiving the singing valentine Tina sent me :( That made me sad. I look forward to my singing valentine's every year and on my last one at Knox i miss it. I suck :-p
Was a challenge to make it through two classes today. I kept getting headaches and just wanting to get up and leave. But i survived and my teachers know I'm not dead.
Ate lunch with Aaron Saylor this afternoon. That was very pleasant. He asked if I was doing any better, which kinda surprised me cause I dunno who told him I was sick. While we were eating Krista came over and inquired about my health, and in the process I realized something peculiar: I've never really considered myself one of the "theater people" at this school, but lately I've felt much more embraced by the theater department than by the English department.
I mean Aaron was telling me that the rumor in the theater department was that I had mono disguised as somethig else, and thats why I'd been gone from classes and rehearsal and what not. The fact that the theater profs and students knew more about what was keeing me out of class, or at least had a more concrete if no necessarily accurate idea about it than any of my English profs kinda says something.
I've always been at the outskirts of the writing community around here. I'm not a catch person, not a bladu person, not a TKS person, not a weekly forum person. Without involvement in these organizations you can never really be respected as a writer at this school. Thats a fact.
But when it comes to theater, all you need to do is appear in a production or two and they totally embrace you. No shit. If you get cast in more than one show, if people see you on stage multiple times and they LIKE what they see, than you can build a name for yourself as a respected performer. I'm not saying I'm a celebrity or anything, but at present I've worked with most members of the theater faculty and student body pretty closely at one point or another, I've built a reputation of being easy to work with, and plain and simple, people in CFA know who I am. Participating and becoming known in your field is what gets you respect.
And in the theater department there are more paths through which to become "known." One can become known as a performer like Mary Morales, as a dancer like Katy Biver, as a lighting designer like Aaron, as a set constructor like Agnes, a costume designer like Katy Conover, or a stage manager like Krista. In the writing community you can only become known through writing. And if the department does not value you as a writer than any editorial or even copy editing positions are closed to you.
So, yeah, it' strange. Seems like the people giving me hugs in the hallways these days, the ones sitting next to me in class, and eating meals with me, are theater people, and...I just don't really know how that happened I guess. There something really good about it, knowing that there is a field of study that I'm learning how to excel at, and a group of students who are willing to reward me for my efforts. But it feels weird since it's not in the field that I've devoted the most time, energy, and passion to. It's not the one I LONG to be respected within.
But...anyway...
Aaron walked me home after Am Lit. And we talked about Rob, and Walt Whitman, and the silly Christian girl in our class who refuses to acknowledge the sexual imagery in Leaves of Grass. Seems as though I've spent a large chunk of my waking time with Aaron today, hence the title of this entry.
And I guess I had to get to it sooner or later: Valentine's Day. Yeah, no plans for me. Gemma and Jon are going out to dinner and a movie. Personally i wouldn't mind just sleeping all night since I only got three hours last night. But if I'm feeling adventurous i may drg myself to see the Calvin Problem in studio theater. I know Cori is going tonight so I may run into her.
*shrugs* Valentine's Day is less of a deal this year then it has been in a while. Usually I hold an anti-valentines get together at the very least. But not this year. Have no tolerance for petty romantic dilemmas this year. Too much has happened. We're gonna pretend it isn't happening this year. Yup. Not gonna go looking for the couples for the sole purpose of glaring at them. Nope I'm gonna stay in, watch tv, and not think about Kirk.
