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So I meant to go home after work and get a head start on the reading I have due tomorrow. Instead I wound up talking to Matt Lindquist for three hours in the Gizmo. And put off homework not withstanding, I had a whole lot of fun. We talked about outer space, and mythology, and psychology and people. We analyzed the psyches of many a mutual acquaintence, while sizing each other up in the process. I noticed that Matt will always put an abrupt end to any debate he knows he can't win, only he does so in a dismissive manner, a maneuvre meant to make his opponent, who actually has a stronger argument, feel dumb. I don't even think he consciously realizes he does this, but now having been the recipient of his dissmissivness more than once, I can see how it operates.
Flawed or not the boy makes me laugh. I dunno, he makes me feel...like a human. Like there's someone who's interested in what I have to say. Last night I was lamenting my nonexistent social life. Returning to Knox this winter has been a little anti-climactic. All the people I normally look forward to seeing have graduated, so I didn't have a large group of friends to greet me when I got back on campus. No Gayle, Heather, Katie, Jeremiah, Angie, Clark, Bryce, Brent, Tristina, Sarah, Lindsey, Dave. No friendly face around every corner.
I know so few people on campus now. I go into the caf and it's a completely different school. Which is as it should be I suppose, but sad none the less.
I went through Faces last night and made a definitve list of all the poeple I know on campus and of a possible 1100, the list is startlingly short. Only 25. That's it. And most of them are just aquaintences. Makes me feel lonely.
Meant to do laundry and go to the mall today, Matt killed all that noise. I'm so tired. My body is worn out from acting class, my mind is mush. School is so exhausting.
*shrugs* I don't know what else to say.
Flawed or not the boy makes me laugh. I dunno, he makes me feel...like a human. Like there's someone who's interested in what I have to say. Last night I was lamenting my nonexistent social life. Returning to Knox this winter has been a little anti-climactic. All the people I normally look forward to seeing have graduated, so I didn't have a large group of friends to greet me when I got back on campus. No Gayle, Heather, Katie, Jeremiah, Angie, Clark, Bryce, Brent, Tristina, Sarah, Lindsey, Dave. No friendly face around every corner.
I know so few people on campus now. I go into the caf and it's a completely different school. Which is as it should be I suppose, but sad none the less.
I went through Faces last night and made a definitve list of all the poeple I know on campus and of a possible 1100, the list is startlingly short. Only 25. That's it. And most of them are just aquaintences. Makes me feel lonely.
Meant to do laundry and go to the mall today, Matt killed all that noise. I'm so tired. My body is worn out from acting class, my mind is mush. School is so exhausting.
*shrugs* I don't know what else to say.
