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Bringing Out the Dead
Sep. 2nd, 2002 12:41 amHiya,
Get this, after I signed off this morning, around 9 AM, having been awake for all of 10 hours, I FELL BACK ASLEEP!!!!! I'm turning into a damn narcoleptic over here. Slept until 5 PM. I am REALLY well rested now having slept for a grand total of 20 hours of the past 24!
And even though I slept through most of it, a lot happened today. Angie called me :) She and I chatted for about 15 minutes. She is doing well and gave me news of all our Knox friends. Told me how Gayle, Heather, Lindsey, and Dave were. I told her about Katie and Jeremiah moving to Minneapolis together. It was nice.
Also got a long email from Kirk today *rolls eyes*. He was really apologetic and explained why he's been blowing me off for the past week. Said he is still "intrigued" by me. He wants to come over and stay the night tomorrow. I told him he was welcome but we'll see if he actually follows through. I also made it clear to him that I have no plans to sleep with him so he shouldn't come over looking for nookie! Eh, doesn't really matter, I don't expect him to show up anyway.
BTW, did you realize it's September? I have to go back to school on 7 days?! How fucked up is that? Where the hell did this summer go? I know all I've done this summer is mope around the house, but I've been so worried and depressed, I feel as though I haven't even had a break! I did no relaxing this summer, I just got more and more tense with each passing day. No one realizes how exhausting it is to be depressed. It takes a lot of energy to be this miserable.
Mike took me out to the movies tonight. We went to go see The Good Girl which we both enjoyed very much. The guy from October Sky is in it. I can never remember his name, but he's around my age, he's cute, and he can act so of course I want to marry him. Also, Jeff gave Mike a bunch of free CD's today and he was kind enough to give me a couple. He gave me Ani Difranco's Revelling and Reckoning, and he let me borrow Kay Hanley's solo album that I didn't even know she'd cut. I mean, the girl was the sole member of Letters to Cleo, she didn't really NEED to go solo.
It's a humid night here in the city. It's cool but it's wet. My hair is all frizzy. Prolly doesn't help that I didn't shower today. But I must admit I am looking fetching, big hair or not. When I'm sad I tend to forget how sexy I really am. I looked at myself in the mirror today, and even though I was just wearing jeans and a black T-shirt I realized that I looked HOT! I also conveniently forgot that i don't gain weight the way most girls do. When i put on pounds they go to my upper body and my hips. So I'm looking the mirror and saw that all these months I've been complaining about my weight gain, I haven't had anything to complain about! I've still got this cute petite waist, only my chest and hips have swelled out. So I look Marilyn Monroe curvy, not fat! I need to get back to school so I can scan a picture and show it to you all :) I feel good about my body today.
And I see we have yet another new Featured Writer. I was thinking today, I've been using this site for 8 months, and I still have no idea how one becomes a featured diarist. I'm serious. My becoming one was just a huge fluke. Like everyone else I wondered how people got to be featured writers, always thought it would be awesome to become one but had no clue how to go about it. And then one night back in Feb or March, I was having a rough night and was really jonesing to write in my journal, only SCN was acting all screwy and not letting me sign on. I thought there was something wrong with my account so I emailed the staff and asked them to fix it because I wanted to write in my journal dammit! The next morning everything was fine, so I figured the problem had been fixed and I went about my life. A week or two later Jeff emails me, asking if my account is functioning all right, and to email hiim back just to confirm. Oh and by the way if I want to become a featured writer all I have to do is ask.
That threw me for a loop. I hadn't even inquired about featured writer-dom and here Jeff was just offering it to me. At first I wasn't gonna take it, figuring there must be something wrong with a gift so easily given. I thought it would some how be selfish of me to accept. But then I was like, hold on, this is something i have been silently craving for months, I know I can write, and being a featured writer will get me a wider audience, so fuck it! And I emailed Jeff and told him to sign my ass up! (Well I didn't say that excatly...but I was thinking it.)
And where this whole train of thought came from I have no idea, so I'm gonna wrap this up and return to my regularly scheduled programs.
Ciao,
Carla
Get this, after I signed off this morning, around 9 AM, having been awake for all of 10 hours, I FELL BACK ASLEEP!!!!! I'm turning into a damn narcoleptic over here. Slept until 5 PM. I am REALLY well rested now having slept for a grand total of 20 hours of the past 24!
And even though I slept through most of it, a lot happened today. Angie called me :) She and I chatted for about 15 minutes. She is doing well and gave me news of all our Knox friends. Told me how Gayle, Heather, Lindsey, and Dave were. I told her about Katie and Jeremiah moving to Minneapolis together. It was nice.
Also got a long email from Kirk today *rolls eyes*. He was really apologetic and explained why he's been blowing me off for the past week. Said he is still "intrigued" by me. He wants to come over and stay the night tomorrow. I told him he was welcome but we'll see if he actually follows through. I also made it clear to him that I have no plans to sleep with him so he shouldn't come over looking for nookie! Eh, doesn't really matter, I don't expect him to show up anyway.
BTW, did you realize it's September? I have to go back to school on 7 days?! How fucked up is that? Where the hell did this summer go? I know all I've done this summer is mope around the house, but I've been so worried and depressed, I feel as though I haven't even had a break! I did no relaxing this summer, I just got more and more tense with each passing day. No one realizes how exhausting it is to be depressed. It takes a lot of energy to be this miserable.
Mike took me out to the movies tonight. We went to go see The Good Girl which we both enjoyed very much. The guy from October Sky is in it. I can never remember his name, but he's around my age, he's cute, and he can act so of course I want to marry him. Also, Jeff gave Mike a bunch of free CD's today and he was kind enough to give me a couple. He gave me Ani Difranco's Revelling and Reckoning, and he let me borrow Kay Hanley's solo album that I didn't even know she'd cut. I mean, the girl was the sole member of Letters to Cleo, she didn't really NEED to go solo.
It's a humid night here in the city. It's cool but it's wet. My hair is all frizzy. Prolly doesn't help that I didn't shower today. But I must admit I am looking fetching, big hair or not. When I'm sad I tend to forget how sexy I really am. I looked at myself in the mirror today, and even though I was just wearing jeans and a black T-shirt I realized that I looked HOT! I also conveniently forgot that i don't gain weight the way most girls do. When i put on pounds they go to my upper body and my hips. So I'm looking the mirror and saw that all these months I've been complaining about my weight gain, I haven't had anything to complain about! I've still got this cute petite waist, only my chest and hips have swelled out. So I look Marilyn Monroe curvy, not fat! I need to get back to school so I can scan a picture and show it to you all :) I feel good about my body today.
And I see we have yet another new Featured Writer. I was thinking today, I've been using this site for 8 months, and I still have no idea how one becomes a featured diarist. I'm serious. My becoming one was just a huge fluke. Like everyone else I wondered how people got to be featured writers, always thought it would be awesome to become one but had no clue how to go about it. And then one night back in Feb or March, I was having a rough night and was really jonesing to write in my journal, only SCN was acting all screwy and not letting me sign on. I thought there was something wrong with my account so I emailed the staff and asked them to fix it because I wanted to write in my journal dammit! The next morning everything was fine, so I figured the problem had been fixed and I went about my life. A week or two later Jeff emails me, asking if my account is functioning all right, and to email hiim back just to confirm. Oh and by the way if I want to become a featured writer all I have to do is ask.
That threw me for a loop. I hadn't even inquired about featured writer-dom and here Jeff was just offering it to me. At first I wasn't gonna take it, figuring there must be something wrong with a gift so easily given. I thought it would some how be selfish of me to accept. But then I was like, hold on, this is something i have been silently craving for months, I know I can write, and being a featured writer will get me a wider audience, so fuck it! And I emailed Jeff and told him to sign my ass up! (Well I didn't say that excatly...but I was thinking it.)
And where this whole train of thought came from I have no idea, so I'm gonna wrap this up and return to my regularly scheduled programs.
Ciao,
Carla
