Suerte

I lucked out today. I was suppose to go to work in the music library at six. But, being Reading Day I totally forgot. So I was eating dinner in the caf at 6:45 when I remembered where I should be. I raced over to CFA hoping to god that Karin wouldn't kill me and Anne wouldn't fire me. I arrived to discover the library safe and sound and empty. Karin must have gotten tired of waiting for me to show up. So she left, but not before posting the "Library Worker is Gone Will Be BAck Soon Please Wait" sign on the door. Whew! So no one came in, no one reported me to Anne, and nobody knows that I was an hour late to work.

I wrote 4 pages of my philosophy paper tonight. I'm very proud of myself. I can finish the rest tomorrow or Saturday. Speaking of tomorrow I have my philosophy final tomorrow. Must study for that...tomorrow...before the test.

Here is something completely unrelated. It's funny how little you feel after starting on meds again. It's like the good seratonin mixes with all the negativity in your brain, the two neutralize each other, and you are just left feeling numb. Eventually the seratonin will take over but you are looking at 2 weeks of pure numbness at the very least. Personally, I'd prefer to be miserable. I hate being neutral. I'd rather be one thing or the other. As I've said before, I'd rather be pinned down than fenced in. I like to be able to pin down how I am feeling. Naming something gives you control over it. If you know exactly what something is you can figure out how to change it.

Despite the fact that I'm feeling numb, Gabe was able to make me smile at dinner tonight. As I was getting up to leave he said, "Alright Carla, you can go but the table will be losing a degree of sexiness!" That made me happy. Then Dave Kraus looked at what I was wearing and said, "Yes, And it will be losing a pretty summer dress too."

And Norman made me smile today too. How you ask? Why by giving me a hug of course. Norm gives the best hugs on earth. That's prolly what I'm going to miss the most next year, Norman's hugs. He just knows how to make you feel like you are the most special girl on the planet, always popping up and giving random hugs and reciting poetry. The campus will be a much dimmer place without him.

I'm So Easy

Adrienne Hill is so fun to flirt with. We had a little back and forth today outside the caf and in Old Main. We hugged a gazillion times. She is so soft. I'm such a dork. I should ask her out to dinner sometime. She has been looking for a girl for months. I'm a girl. This could be mutually beneficial if I ever grow a pair of balls and actually tell her what I'm thinking!

And Heather did something sweet today. She put a zip lock bag full of Lucky Charms in my mailbox. They are supposed to bring me luck during finals. Isn't that cute?

Plus it is gorgeous outside. The sun is shining and the birds are chirping. For real.

And to top it all off there was chocolate pudding in the caf tonight, and all is right with the world when there is chocolate pudding.

It doesn't take much to please me. It's all about the little things.

Okay, I'm off to study for my philosophy final.

Bye Bye