Jupiter Jazz
Aug. 18th, 2004 05:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigirlThere are three entires I've been meaning to write. One is the sex entry, another is the hair entry, and the one I've decided to take an hour out of my work day and write right now is the final DC entry.
Day 8: Was awake and out of the house long before Gabe even stirred. Check out time at my hotel was 11 AM so I had to be there at least an hour before hand so I could get in a shower and pack up my shit. Did all of the above and was back in Silver Spring by noon. Crawled back into bed with Gabe. He got up about a half hour later but was kind enough to let me sleep for another hour because I had to wake up at 8 AM. I rolled out of bed at 1:30 PM. Gabe had some chores to take care of around the house so I sat and read "Lost Souls" while he mowed the lawn.
We went to Bethesda for dinner. Had yummy food and yummier ice cream. Gabe was very eager to have me meet his friend Carlos, and that evening we were finally able to get a hold of him. After dinner we headed over to Carlos's, and as seems to be the case whenever I come into contact with Gabe's friends, that's where the trouble began. I thought I was just going to meet Carlos, maybe a couple other people...certainly wasn't expecting to descend into a basement of 8 or 9 strangers who all knew one another and were already having a jolly time. I was intoduced and...that was it. Took a seat on one of the couches and spent the next hour listening to other people talk about subjects and situations I knew nothing about. Maybe I've been spoiled, maybe I just have really awesome friends, but I'm not used to walking into an unfamiliar social group and not have a single person in the room attempt to make the outsider feel comfortable. In my circle if a new person is introduced into our well established social hierarchy we do our best to make them feel welcome. We ask them questions, we explain inside jokes, we give background on any topic we discuss that they may not be familiar with, and from what I can tell it's this warmth that keeps people coming back. It's why we always find ourselves mixing with many different and varied types of individuals.
But this group was nothing like that. They all talked to each other and were all but completely unaware of the fact I was there. Granted, I didn't do anything to insert myself into conversation, mainly because I know jack shit about video games, anime, and RPGs. No way I could have contributed anything valuable on any of those subjects. So I sat. And felt alone. And ignored. And kept thinking "please get me out of this." A good way to tell how uncomfotable I am is to pay attention to how small I get. When feeling ignored I try to make myself small and invisible. Didn't take long for me to lay my head in Gabe's lap, pull my knees up to my chest, and put my hair over my face. Eventually the others grew restless and decided to go out. Gabe looked down at the silent heap next to him and asked "do you want to go home?" I nodded. And we did.
Back at the house I found myself curling up in a ball on Gabe's couch. I was still feeling scared and uncomfortable. Felt bad for Gabe because he didn't know what to do for me and I didn't know what he should do. I knew I didn't want to be left alone, I wanted to do something with him, I just didn't know what. So I asked for a hug, and I got one. He suggested we watch a movie and I liked that idea, so I told him to put in the Matrix because that film has a soothing effect on me. It's comforting and familiar, and I can recite the entire thing. So out came the velour blankets, in went the DVD, and thus began Gabe and Carla's personal Rocky Horror Picture Show. I started out slow, not wanting to annoy Gabe with my constant line recitation, but as soon as Neo flipped off Agent Smith all bets were off. I was saying every other line and Gabe was inserting extra dialogue after just about every line Keanu Reeves uttered. It was hilarious. Had ourselves a nice little ball, and only 5 minutes into the movie I began to relax. By the time we fell asleep I was back to my old self.
Day 9: My day of departure. We awoke. We dicked around online. Dan and Bobby came over and we all played cards. Of all Gabe's friends I think I like Bobby the best. He's really laid back and just seems like he doesn't give a shit about anything. I like that. And of all the people I've met Bobby has been the nicest to me. Damn shame Gabe doesn't see him more often. Anyway we played cards, Dan and I lost, Bobby offered to drive me to the metro so we all piled in his car and drove to the Forest Glen station where the boys saw me off. I made it to Union Station in one piece and three and a half hours later I was back in NYC.
*takes breath* Whew!!! So glad that's over and done with. Now I don't have to worry about finishing up my great DC saga. It's done, it's over, I can start writing about my actual LIFE again!!!
Until next time.
Day 8: Was awake and out of the house long before Gabe even stirred. Check out time at my hotel was 11 AM so I had to be there at least an hour before hand so I could get in a shower and pack up my shit. Did all of the above and was back in Silver Spring by noon. Crawled back into bed with Gabe. He got up about a half hour later but was kind enough to let me sleep for another hour because I had to wake up at 8 AM. I rolled out of bed at 1:30 PM. Gabe had some chores to take care of around the house so I sat and read "Lost Souls" while he mowed the lawn.
We went to Bethesda for dinner. Had yummy food and yummier ice cream. Gabe was very eager to have me meet his friend Carlos, and that evening we were finally able to get a hold of him. After dinner we headed over to Carlos's, and as seems to be the case whenever I come into contact with Gabe's friends, that's where the trouble began. I thought I was just going to meet Carlos, maybe a couple other people...certainly wasn't expecting to descend into a basement of 8 or 9 strangers who all knew one another and were already having a jolly time. I was intoduced and...that was it. Took a seat on one of the couches and spent the next hour listening to other people talk about subjects and situations I knew nothing about. Maybe I've been spoiled, maybe I just have really awesome friends, but I'm not used to walking into an unfamiliar social group and not have a single person in the room attempt to make the outsider feel comfortable. In my circle if a new person is introduced into our well established social hierarchy we do our best to make them feel welcome. We ask them questions, we explain inside jokes, we give background on any topic we discuss that they may not be familiar with, and from what I can tell it's this warmth that keeps people coming back. It's why we always find ourselves mixing with many different and varied types of individuals.
But this group was nothing like that. They all talked to each other and were all but completely unaware of the fact I was there. Granted, I didn't do anything to insert myself into conversation, mainly because I know jack shit about video games, anime, and RPGs. No way I could have contributed anything valuable on any of those subjects. So I sat. And felt alone. And ignored. And kept thinking "please get me out of this." A good way to tell how uncomfotable I am is to pay attention to how small I get. When feeling ignored I try to make myself small and invisible. Didn't take long for me to lay my head in Gabe's lap, pull my knees up to my chest, and put my hair over my face. Eventually the others grew restless and decided to go out. Gabe looked down at the silent heap next to him and asked "do you want to go home?" I nodded. And we did.
Back at the house I found myself curling up in a ball on Gabe's couch. I was still feeling scared and uncomfortable. Felt bad for Gabe because he didn't know what to do for me and I didn't know what he should do. I knew I didn't want to be left alone, I wanted to do something with him, I just didn't know what. So I asked for a hug, and I got one. He suggested we watch a movie and I liked that idea, so I told him to put in the Matrix because that film has a soothing effect on me. It's comforting and familiar, and I can recite the entire thing. So out came the velour blankets, in went the DVD, and thus began Gabe and Carla's personal Rocky Horror Picture Show. I started out slow, not wanting to annoy Gabe with my constant line recitation, but as soon as Neo flipped off Agent Smith all bets were off. I was saying every other line and Gabe was inserting extra dialogue after just about every line Keanu Reeves uttered. It was hilarious. Had ourselves a nice little ball, and only 5 minutes into the movie I began to relax. By the time we fell asleep I was back to my old self.
Day 9: My day of departure. We awoke. We dicked around online. Dan and Bobby came over and we all played cards. Of all Gabe's friends I think I like Bobby the best. He's really laid back and just seems like he doesn't give a shit about anything. I like that. And of all the people I've met Bobby has been the nicest to me. Damn shame Gabe doesn't see him more often. Anyway we played cards, Dan and I lost, Bobby offered to drive me to the metro so we all piled in his car and drove to the Forest Glen station where the boys saw me off. I made it to Union Station in one piece and three and a half hours later I was back in NYC.
*takes breath* Whew!!! So glad that's over and done with. Now I don't have to worry about finishing up my great DC saga. It's done, it's over, I can start writing about my actual LIFE again!!!
Until next time.
