morrigirl | Because Gayle told me to

the allison.

1) Something random about you: Allie is at her prettiest when she's smiling :-)
2) A song/movie reminds me of you: Girls Just Wanna Have Fun - Cyndi Lauper.
3) Flavor of jello to wrestle with you in: Unfortunately, ever since watching a very disturbing porn my freshman year of college I can no longer even LOOK at jello without feeling nauseated, so we'll just have to settle for the ball pit at Chuck E. Cheese.
4) Something that only makes sense to you and me: Tag! Have a rose.
5) My first memory of you: I remember you taking the SCN Religion forum by storm. You were the first really vocal atheist we had out there and I thought you were so cool, so articulate, and TONS more confident than me because it takes confidence to live without a God.
6) The animal you remind me of: A wee little parakeet.
7) Something that I've always wondered about you: Why do you fall in love with your friends so often?
8) Oh wait, you've done this. Time for me to go drop my name on yours huh?

honestly, i think its because im not like... "a dating kind of girl"...
and the only people who do take interest in me are ones who know me for who i am- and those people, more often than not, are friends of mine.

Me! A Lauren!

1) Something random about you: Lauren is one of the few people on the planet who is shorter than me :-)
2) A song/movie reminds me of you: Anything from Cirque Du Soliel.
3) Flavor of jello to wrestle with you in: No jello. Jello bad. How 'bout butterscotch pudding instead?
4) Something that only makes sense to you and me: Jerry Springer!
5) My first memory of you: My first really clear memory of you is from the Where the Wild Things Are auditions. I remember the two of us reading together and Mary and Cori throwing all these weird scenarios at us and having to read the lines in bizarre character. And I remember being glad I got to read with you because I felt comfortable with you and knew i could let it all hang out with you as my partner.
6) The animal you remind me of: A rolly bug!
7) Something that I've always wondered about you: What's your trick to making everyone fall totally in love with you on sight?
8) Okay, my turn to put you through the ringer, heh heh.

Truth be told, I've never considered that one of my super powers. I don't understand why a guy likes me when he does. I ask, too, and try to figure it out. Mom calls it the "Yum Yum Quality." (There is something disturbing about my mother commenting on this.) If I were really able to analyze it, I would. I know what other people tell me, I know what my experiences have been, but I don't understand it all. I'm just me. I don't usually see it happening until it's too late.

If it really were absolutely everyone, that would make it rather interesting to go to the grocery store.

Gayle :)

1) Something random about you: Gayle looks awesome in light blue which is very fortunate since that's her favorite color.
2) A song/movie reminds me of you: In the Springtime of His Voodoo - Tori Amos
3) Flavor of jello to wrestle with you in: Screw jello, we're gonna roll around in a big honking rain puddle!
4) Something that only makes sense to you and me: Llama's make ideal dinner companions.
5) My first memory of you: Meeting you in the caf when Moses dragged me in there all sick and runny for chocolate chip pancakes. You were wearing your glasses. And you seemed too cool for school.
6) The animal you remind me of: A little white kitten.
7) Something that I've always wondered about you: I know my reasons, but why do you keep getting back into Trouble?
8) Now we're even :-)

That's such a good song. and Tori is on Leno right now :)
Who sings "Trouble" anyway, 'cause I wanted to download it but couldn't figure out the artist.
LLAMAS!!

why a white kitten?

hey, I don't know your reasons, there's something I don't know. Then again, I don't really know my own reasons. It's scary how fitting a code name Trouble is though. Because I finally realized that he's bad for me, but that doesn't stop me from seeing him or wanting to see him. Hmmm, well, it could be a stupid, teenage girl hope that one day he'll grow up & become someone actually worth dating & realize that he's in love with me. And also that I haven't met anyone else that I want to date, yet, so I'm still fixating on the past. Who knows

Right after Heather got back from Peru she actually asked me "You know Gayle hasn't dated anyone in so long, do you think she's waiting for him?"

I said no, but I wasn't sure, hence this question.

My reasons?

Well I can honestly say I no longer harbor the slightest hope that he will ever be interested in me again, nor that he will grow up, realize that HE is the reason all his relationships go sour, and change his behavior.

So my reasons for sticking around are twofold: 1) I'm angry that none of the above is going to happen. I'm also angry that he has so much social and intellectual potential that he's too lazy to really utilize so I wanna be around to watch his life crash and burn. It gives the ever slighted woman in me pleasure.

2) I expected him to drop me a LONG time ago. But he hasn't and I know he values me as a friend even though we don't talk very often. He always makes time to see me when I'm around, always finds time to talk to me when I call. We've known each other for seven years now and to me that counts for something. Most of my friendships don't have so long a shelf life. So, even though I know he is bad for me as well, I keep this distanced friendship because we have a history and despite all the shit we hate about each other, we "get" one another. Though neither of us would ever admit it to the other.

no, I'm not waiting, at least not consciously.

I like your number 1. That's something Steph would never understand and that's something that I totally don't understand about her. If that makes sense.

I also agree with #2. Last time he called me, which was like 9 months ago, I was just happy he still had my number in his phone. And one thing I always like about him from day 1 was that I felt like he understood me w/o my having to explain myself. Like he saw through the facade of triviality.

Also, I send him an email on his birthday every year because there are so few people in the same class year as me who are younger than me, and I think it's funny that he's younger than me. And I know that he'll never write back.

I just realize I forgot to answer your initial question about the song Trouble. It's by Shampoo.

Is Steph not the sort of person who wishes ill of others?

I've fogotten to send him birthday emails these last few years. At Knox it was easy cause his presence was a visual reminder. And even though I still mark it on my calendar I don't do anything to acknowledge it anymore. Yes, I'm a bad friend.

i feel slightly dirty knowing who you are talking about. dude's bad news.

Jay (yeah, well, you may as well try to get used to calling me that. i don't think it's going away.)

1) Something random about you: Jay and I share the same brain.
2) A song/movie reminds me of you: In the Weeds - Michelle Malone
3) Flavor of jello to wrestle with you in: Why don't we just roll around on the lawn in the middle of the New Quad?
4) Something that only makes sense to you and me: Nothing you can say or do will ever make me sing the red neck version of "Me and Bobby McGee" ever again!
5) My first memory of you: Didn't I write about this a few months ago? I hate having to repeat myself. I refer you to the March 29, 2005 journal entry entitled "Love Songs" if you need a refersher.
6) The animal you remind me of: You remind me of a cat. The kind that has been living in the house for 20 years and is still really bloody adorable but also really set in its ways and knows it has the family wrapped around his little paw.
7) Something that I've always wondered about you: At what point did you seriously start thinking you were trans and how did you arrive at that conclusion?
8) Your turn chico.

well, to give an unsatisfying answer, I don't think there was *one* point where I said to myself "yep--trans". Certain things stick out, like for instance one day freshman year, Libby and I were in the Giz, chillin, and she brought up how, after laundering them, I fold my jeans like a boy (i fold them vertically and pull the crotch out at the same time. sorta hard to explain.) then she told me i walk and talk like a boy. i doubt she'd remember this conversation at all. but i do. and then a few years later i was in an acting class in community college and used a stipple sponge to create a five o clock shadow for a male character monologue i was doing. my theatre teacher and two female students were in the doorway of the dressing room, and as i walked by, one girl said to the teacher "wow. he--i mean she--looks really good." and the teacher smiled, nodded at me, and said "amazing, isn't it?"
i always thought transitioning was something other people did. other people who are braver/crazier/less cowardly/less/more depressed than i. while i have my rebellious side, i guess, i've always played by the rules. but i'm tired of it. as i started to hear news of people i knew or used to know going through a female-to-male transition, i thought, well, why can they do that and i can't? and then it dawned on me that i was trans, and I *could* transition.
i was so sullen freshman year. do you remember? at that time i just desperately wanted being a boydyke to be the answer to all my sadness. it worked a little bit, but it kind of opened up the floodgates of "how masculine can i look/act/be?" and then i realized that i didn't want to stop at boydyke land. i've thought about this for five years now, and i've come to the conclusion that i may as well attempt transitioning. i couldn't be any unhappier, so making any sort of peace with myself, no matter what the price, would be worth it.

youbachi2003

I'd like to see this.

1) Something random about you: Yobachi is an idiot magnet. They flock to him because they're too dumb to realize he's gonna make glorious fun of their idiocy.
2) A song/movie reminds me of you: Anything by Public Enemy.
3) Flavor of jello to wrestle with you in: Ew. No jello. Jello is gross. I think ti would be much more fun to wrestle in the African-American History and Culture section of the Library of Congress.
4) Something that only makes sense to you and me: Hmmm, we don't have any inside jokes or anything. We should get some. I bet I can find one for us on eBay.
5) My first memory of you: I know you found me first. I can only assume you found me through an interest search because at the time we didn't have any communities in common. But I remember you commented on my journal, and then for a week afterwards I checked yours everyday, trying to guage if you were someone I wanted to add to my friends list. Your posts were funny, intelligent, and above all interesting, so I added you and you've provided me with hours of delight ever since.
7) Something that I've always wondered about you: Why do you hide your identity?
8) Have at it.

Oh man I totally skipped number 6) What animal you remind me of.

You remind me of a scorpion.

Rydia :}

1) Something random about you: Rydia has bright red hair and isn't human sometimes.
2) A song/movie reminds me of you: Lydia, the Tattooed Lady :-)
3) Flavor of jello to wrestle with you in: Boo to Jello. I say we wrestle in the back of a pick up truck filled with down pillows.
4) Something that only makes sense to you and me: Oooh I've got a letter from A Mysterious Lady.
5) My first memory of you: I remember first seeing you in

depression and really relating to everything you posted. At the time I'd never added a stranger to my friends list but I really wanted to add you. So I fought with myself for a couple days and finally just figured "fuck it" and added you.
6) The animal you remind me of: A PonyKitty of course!
7) Something that I've always wondered about you: How did you and Kiba hook-up? I'm curious because of all the drama that accompanied it.
8) Okay, your turn :-)

okay go!

1) Something random about you: David lives in PR but was born in the Bronx.
2) A song/movie reminds me of you: That one you're always trying to get me to listen to "Breathe." Still not sure if I've heard it, but when I finally do I'll think of you.
3) Flavor of jello to wrestle with you in: I hate jello. Let's wrestle in an oplympic sized swimming pool full of seltzer instead.
4) Something that only makes sense to you and me: I do NOT view monster cock porn ~~very often~~ ever.
5) My first memory of you: I remember reading a very long heartfelt post in

depression about being single and breaking up with people and thinking you were the kind of guy who must light up maternal feelings in every girl he comes in contact with.
6) The animal you remind me of: A salmon!
7) Something that I've always wondered about you: How do you manage to stay so positive?
8) You've done this, no need for me to push you.

A salmon? we should ad a why to that section of the quiz.

As for me staying positive? well i dont think i do, frankly there are times i get very bumbed but not like in my past where i would be depressed for months at a time, i guess i just dont want to go back to that not to mention that i do belive when you think negatively negative things happen to you.

Puppy.

1) Something random about you: Gabe has the longest hair of anyone I've ever met, male or female.
2) A song/movie reminds me of you: Equilibrium
3) Flavor of jello to wrestle with you in: Forget jello, I'm thinking a room full of gold coins much like the one Scrooge McDuck always swam around in in Ducktales.
4) Something that only makes sense to you and me: Beware of the octopusses.
5) My first memory of you: Again, I've already written about this. I refer you to the April 14, 2005 entry entiled "Everyone Has a Story Involving Me."
6) The animal you remind me of: A big furry sheep dog.
7) Something that I've always wondered about you: How often, if at all, do you find yourself wondering if polyamory really is the best relationship style for you?
8) Moot

Ariel (the real one.)

dude . . . i want in! ;P *k*

Do me!

Heh, do me.

hmm I forgot to put my name down so MATTHEW IVER LINDQUIST!!!

1) Something random about you: Matt may not be aware, but Iver is the sexiest middle name EVER!
2) A song/movie reminds me of you: Dreamcatcher only because it was a horror the two of use shared together.
3) Flavor of jello to wrestle with you in: Ew. We could go to the local trash dump and scavenger for spare parts to build a spaceship with. How does that sound?
4) Something that only makes sense to you and me: Alpha Centauri!
5) My first memory of you: Is having a very heated "debate" about feminism with you in the cafeteria after mythology class one day.
6) The animal you remind me of: A Lizard
7) Something that I've always wondered about you: What do you want to do for a living? Emphasis on the word WANT.
8) *cracks whip* Get on it boy!

Because Gayle told me to

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In love with me??

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no one asked my opinion, so here it is

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yay!

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