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Shades of Scarlet Conquering
Loud music playing. The Tri Delts down the hall are getting drunk as usual.
I am watching Homicide on Court TV as usual.
I am still reflecting on Kevin. One part of me wants to jump right back into the dating pool. Another part of me says wait. I've lost three in a row now. three strikes you are out. I went two strikes over the last time and wound up losing my mind. Don't wanna do that again.
It's awful. I finally get over all of my commitment issues and then nobody wants to be with me. Paul says it'll happen when it happens. But I want it now. I feel so lonely. I'm not co dependent but there is something in my head that still believes you are only worth something if you have a bf or gf. I know thats not true. Many of my friends are single and they are absolutely priceless. But we hold ourselves to a different standard than we hold others.
Goddess those bitches down the hall are so loud! They've been blaring music for 5 hours. I've a good mind to make a noise complaint.
I think Kevin has blocked me on his IM list. I didn't see him online at all today which is very unusual. He's always online when he is at work.
While I'm wallowing I think now is the perfect time to mention that not only does Marc have a new girlfriend but that he has been totally ignoring me since we got back on campus. hasn't said hi to me ONCE!!!!! Dipshit.
A little advice to the boys out there. treat your women with respect. Always be completely honest with them even if the truth is painful. NEVER USE ANYONE FOR SEX unless she is doing the same to you. Don't be afraid of the words I Love You. Any person who says them honestly is worthy of your heart.
I am watching Homicide on Court TV as usual.
I am still reflecting on Kevin. One part of me wants to jump right back into the dating pool. Another part of me says wait. I've lost three in a row now. three strikes you are out. I went two strikes over the last time and wound up losing my mind. Don't wanna do that again.
It's awful. I finally get over all of my commitment issues and then nobody wants to be with me. Paul says it'll happen when it happens. But I want it now. I feel so lonely. I'm not co dependent but there is something in my head that still believes you are only worth something if you have a bf or gf. I know thats not true. Many of my friends are single and they are absolutely priceless. But we hold ourselves to a different standard than we hold others.
Goddess those bitches down the hall are so loud! They've been blaring music for 5 hours. I've a good mind to make a noise complaint.
I think Kevin has blocked me on his IM list. I didn't see him online at all today which is very unusual. He's always online when he is at work.
While I'm wallowing I think now is the perfect time to mention that not only does Marc have a new girlfriend but that he has been totally ignoring me since we got back on campus. hasn't said hi to me ONCE!!!!! Dipshit.
A little advice to the boys out there. treat your women with respect. Always be completely honest with them even if the truth is painful. NEVER USE ANYONE FOR SEX unless she is doing the same to you. Don't be afraid of the words I Love You. Any person who says them honestly is worthy of your heart.